I absolutely adore her

There are things so complicated you can explain with the theory so simplistic it goes "you dont want your life, others still want theirs" It explains selfishness, selflessness, sacrifices, forgiveness and so much more.


And it hurts the most. too.






i fuckin hate this song

hey yo...

its 3 hrs to book in time and im writing this real fast.

i just wanted to write something somewhere. i got to realise just how lucky i am.

i have my parents and my brother who are there and two years later will be there and 20 years later will still be there. haha. and i have my friends. the friends who you know will be there 20 years later too. and i have a girl who has the most infinite patience in the world. and she loves me. so im a lucky person. i mean seriously... you cant understand how lucky i am feeling right now.

and i start to really ponder whether anot i want everything that badly bcos everytime you pursue something really badly, you end up feeling empty after u get it. you dont really need it after all.

AND I REALLY DONT WANT NS. that one i know for sure.

ha. vroom. im off.

you know i had tons i wanted to scribble in here because no one comes already anyway... but i lost all thoughts on the way. HA HA HA

4mths into ns and everything starts to settle into place. lifestyle changes and all the adjustments needed has been done. Sure once in a while i still get the i-want-to-get-out-and-do-my-life-MY-WAY impluses... but yea, this what every guy goes through in singapore what... sometimes i just wonder whats it like out there where the others are already working and rubbing shoulders the corporate way, are they also adapting well enough? or i suppose the adjustments are almost neverending... Just how many people get to do what they want in the materialistic society called singapore? i dont mean shake-leg-drink-icetea kinda life... everybody simply just fits into the broad system of the society and start slogging and shaping their lives the way everybody does in here eh... so its still kinda regimental in the not-so-obvious way... Like say... Money? the root of all evil. probably when money's not only not an issue, its meaning entirely vanished, that everything else (the corporate ladder, jobs, cultures, so-called positive & -ve values etc) will start to dissipitate as well. but then again... thats rather idealistic.



what if there's a place where people realise their own personal missions everyday single day when they wake up, and not nearing the end when they're inches away from their deathbeds that their own in-bred objectives finally dawn upon them?

TWO MONTHSSSSSSS?!?!?!?!?!?!


since the last post. i think its the longest ever... because got nothing to update what!

but then since ive got this uber l0000ng weekend i went to catch up on some of the blogs and realised n0thing much is up there either, other than hyperactive eric's. HAHAHA wah the world revolves around me eh... i stop everybody else stops! (Eric's from another galaxy so he dosent count).

hahhhhh.... so how's everyone doing?


SHIT. i just realsied like since i haven touched this blog for this long, wouldnt there be nobody left who regularly checks for updates? SO I WRITE FOR WHAT?!


nevermind lahh... just write only.

i tell you... two months into army and it really is taking its toll already. i know two months is only just TWO freaking MONTHS. but trust me, time crawls slower than a tortoise and snail combined inside. i feel like ive been in that shithole for like at least half a year already. Anyway, i said its takin its toll. its not so much about the training and stuff, that part can be enjoyable. why its hard to get by is that u freakin have no idea why ur spending almost 90% of your time inside doing countless tasks and seemingly having a schedule so packed its bigger than Big Mac. BECAUSE i really have no idea what i had been doing for the past two months. and i really do not like the prospect of doing this for two straight years. sometimes we dont realise how precious time actually is. yes we acknowledge that time is precious most of the time, then fullstop. but i realise(sortof!) now just how important it is to know what you are doing with your time!

Two years, so strategically placed at a time where steps u take would make or break your entire life. Army came at a time when i havent yet decided whether music can feed me for the rest of my life (or at least until i find a rich enough chiobu to powder my face white). Then now i risk ending up somewhere where i have no time even to choose where to take a dump, let alone having anything to do with err... whats the name... , music?



Ohh GODDDDD!! Can a voice just freakin tell me what to do?! like err... let's see Xuan Almighty??!!

great... now where are the wise people i successfully rid of(rather very stupidly) from my life?