I am fuckin' emo now




bcos i just woke up
bcos i am bookin in later
bcos i am attached
bcos i know things
bcos i'm not supposed to know
bcos a storm is coming


ok it feels better now rather than have all the uncertainties jumbled up.

I absolutely adore her

There are things so complicated you can explain with the theory so simplistic it goes "you dont want your life, others still want theirs" It explains selfishness, selflessness, sacrifices, forgiveness and so much more.


And it hurts the most. too.






i fuckin hate this song

hey yo...

its 3 hrs to book in time and im writing this real fast.

i just wanted to write something somewhere. i got to realise just how lucky i am.

i have my parents and my brother who are there and two years later will be there and 20 years later will still be there. haha. and i have my friends. the friends who you know will be there 20 years later too. and i have a girl who has the most infinite patience in the world. and she loves me. so im a lucky person. i mean seriously... you cant understand how lucky i am feeling right now.

and i start to really ponder whether anot i want everything that badly bcos everytime you pursue something really badly, you end up feeling empty after u get it. you dont really need it after all.

AND I REALLY DONT WANT NS. that one i know for sure.

ha. vroom. im off.

you know i had tons i wanted to scribble in here because no one comes already anyway... but i lost all thoughts on the way. HA HA HA

4mths into ns and everything starts to settle into place. lifestyle changes and all the adjustments needed has been done. Sure once in a while i still get the i-want-to-get-out-and-do-my-life-MY-WAY impluses... but yea, this what every guy goes through in singapore what... sometimes i just wonder whats it like out there where the others are already working and rubbing shoulders the corporate way, are they also adapting well enough? or i suppose the adjustments are almost neverending... Just how many people get to do what they want in the materialistic society called singapore? i dont mean shake-leg-drink-icetea kinda life... everybody simply just fits into the broad system of the society and start slogging and shaping their lives the way everybody does in here eh... so its still kinda regimental in the not-so-obvious way... Like say... Money? the root of all evil. probably when money's not only not an issue, its meaning entirely vanished, that everything else (the corporate ladder, jobs, cultures, so-called positive & -ve values etc) will start to dissipitate as well. but then again... thats rather idealistic.



what if there's a place where people realise their own personal missions everyday single day when they wake up, and not nearing the end when they're inches away from their deathbeds that their own in-bred objectives finally dawn upon them?