sucks. Absolutely.

it ain't fucking funny to have everything in ur life messed up and u have to take the freakin last train home but it stops one staion before yours u end up walking home in total darkness and like a hundred taxidrivers waving at u frm the road.

like what bloody fuck else can happen? u are already expecting the unexpected and something occurs you dunno how to react. then so many chores to do u havent started even to think abt doing it. so life's fucked up and ur fucked up. but u look at others and u start feelin better abt ur life. then u sit down and when everything sinks back in u start gettin tormented all over again. wtf. stop these double blows.

sucks. Absolutely.

i had already decided to shut this blog down. but i looked back at the entries and the previous months and i didnt want to anymore. hahaha. just hope they dun mess up and erase everything.

and i want to blog in chinese but is too troublesome and cnnt be bothered to do it.



and its pretty ironic how ur presense is still FELT after ur gone. and trust me it'll be here for quite some time. and to you!! it has nothing to do with you! or whoever... it was a something we tried to do since before i entered poly. and it took us two years. anyway... the thing is that it has nothing to do with anybody else other than the two of us. although i kinda regret telling yall the stuff bcos its quite redundant and irrelevant and not useful. anyway... just forget the thing and dun think too much. CRAZY. haaha.
and to her: stay happy and find him. :)

=)

i'm going to live myself from now on.
Achieve all thats been going through my mind all this while.
Reach out to the coldest of hearts.

I will live life to its fullest.
and make sure when i lie on my deathbed, i look back and smile.

i regret knowing you. i'm sorry but i really do.
you shouldn't have come into my life.
i sang it many many times. its as if u saw this coming and chose this song back then.
my eyes are red. this is the second time bcos of you.
i know what you want. i know your intentions.
i know what to do. i really do!

keep me in your heart. bcos u are and will always be.
i cherished. and smile. bcos i noe u did too.
take care of yourself. just like how i will of me.

maybe one day our paths will cross again.
let me tell you if that happens you are not going to leave anymore.
for now, 你要照顧自己.

please... im begging you. stay happy.

bye