mY bag is freakin biG!!!!! haha. ya e stupid crumpler bag is sooo big lar... n to maximise e enormous space available to myself i stuffed every single piece of notes into it thinkin i dun nid to pack my bag i dun nid to be worrying about sittin thru lectures emptyhanded i can haf everythin i nid if i feel like studyin. BUT of course... i still sit thru lectures emptyhanded.. n i obviously dun study. so e onli ting i succeeded in doin is to tire my poor shoulders wif e gigantic load of books n end up aching when i rch home. Haa! still... im "persevering". persevere is a nicer word... than "stubborn" n "insisting" n "....."

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ooh... n i was doin sum serious pondering dat dae. it goes like how we cannot choose to be who we are when we're born... like evrybody else dun alreadi noe. hhaaha. bud it is dat we could haf ended up being somebody of a different race.. a different gender a different nationality. imagine urself tob a malay... urself tob indian or eurasian or ani race u can think of... u couldb in e busy streets of NewYork or e wilderness of Africa or e poverty of Afghan. u could be a female or a male or a homo... it is like we look different think differently becos we choose to? it is like we were all part of a jellybean jar... n somehow somebody picks us up n throws us into e pipehole down to whoever we are now. so we were all e same isn't it... maybe dere should never have been any barriers... or distinctions of any of us... any country any race any gender? ok mayb not so e gender part... hhaha bud it is like maybe we were meant to learn e same language be e same breed n one kind... hehe n im havin fantasies of us being part of another world... earthlings are onli a tiny weeny planet n e whole galaxy is filled wif so many other forms of LIFE. so maybe "DifferenT" is a word barred frm comin up in ur mind e nxt time u see anybody... be it frm ani country ani race any form physically mentally handicapped or not...

n speakin of birth n being born... all of us have dreams don't we. there is that little or huge SOMETHING u realli hope will happen. bud how many of us r actually doin sumtin to makeit reality. it just lingers around n pops up occasionally... bud we dun seem to be literally chasing that "dream"? i seriously think nuthin is impossible.... or what we sae nt given the chance... circumstances do not allow... or simply UnablE. isit realli that way...? or r we settin barriers mentally already...

hhaha... im suddenly exercising my brain alot tonite...
n do u realise how cliched we thought e stuff adults said to us n usin e phrase "bu tin lao ren yan .........." it was Nag n YeaYea baq then... bud along e way u tend to realise how they make sense eventually n how TRUE they suddenly appear to be... hmm.

its all starting to fascinate again. everything around us. the world. life. Haa! ;p