im disillusioned by everything... i have a terrible headache caused by drinkin too much milk??.... and i terribly wanna sing... YALAMATELOOO... it means FUCK whatever deserves to be.

mY bag is freakin biG!!!!! haha. ya e stupid crumpler bag is sooo big lar... n to maximise e enormous space available to myself i stuffed every single piece of notes into it thinkin i dun nid to pack my bag i dun nid to be worrying about sittin thru lectures emptyhanded i can haf everythin i nid if i feel like studyin. BUT of course... i still sit thru lectures emptyhanded.. n i obviously dun study. so e onli ting i succeeded in doin is to tire my poor shoulders wif e gigantic load of books n end up aching when i rch home. Haa! still... im "persevering". persevere is a nicer word... than "stubborn" n "insisting" n "....."

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ooh... n i was doin sum serious pondering dat dae. it goes like how we cannot choose to be who we are when we're born... like evrybody else dun alreadi noe. hhaaha. bud it is dat we could haf ended up being somebody of a different race.. a different gender a different nationality. imagine urself tob a malay... urself tob indian or eurasian or ani race u can think of... u couldb in e busy streets of NewYork or e wilderness of Africa or e poverty of Afghan. u could be a female or a male or a homo... it is like we look different think differently becos we choose to? it is like we were all part of a jellybean jar... n somehow somebody picks us up n throws us into e pipehole down to whoever we are now. so we were all e same isn't it... maybe dere should never have been any barriers... or distinctions of any of us... any country any race any gender? ok mayb not so e gender part... hhaha bud it is like maybe we were meant to learn e same language be e same breed n one kind... hehe n im havin fantasies of us being part of another world... earthlings are onli a tiny weeny planet n e whole galaxy is filled wif so many other forms of LIFE. so maybe "DifferenT" is a word barred frm comin up in ur mind e nxt time u see anybody... be it frm ani country ani race any form physically mentally handicapped or not...

n speakin of birth n being born... all of us have dreams don't we. there is that little or huge SOMETHING u realli hope will happen. bud how many of us r actually doin sumtin to makeit reality. it just lingers around n pops up occasionally... bud we dun seem to be literally chasing that "dream"? i seriously think nuthin is impossible.... or what we sae nt given the chance... circumstances do not allow... or simply UnablE. isit realli that way...? or r we settin barriers mentally already...

hhaha... im suddenly exercising my brain alot tonite...
n do u realise how cliched we thought e stuff adults said to us n usin e phrase "bu tin lao ren yan .........." it was Nag n YeaYea baq then... bud along e way u tend to realise how they make sense eventually n how TRUE they suddenly appear to be... hmm.

its all starting to fascinate again. everything around us. the world. life. Haa! ;p

so many things to blog, so little time. hhahahaha!!! anyways...
yea i've got a new class sch started like a week ago... n i got my zenMicro. FINALLY.

oya... regarding e last post.
people haf been sayin its just me n its normal n its selfpity. ya e comments haf been somehow somewhat alot mre negative den i expected. hha bud what i meant was i am LITERALLY optimistic. as in OPTIMISTIC in e very and most optimistic kind... yea? hhaha... it is lookin at a situation an object or even a person... and thinkin in an entirely diff manner frm most people. n dat is definitely not 95% of e world... hhaha
wad 95% of e world feels is dat dey r living in a world requiring them to wear a mask... it is within control yet forced to abandon. when ur crying that out to evrybody else whu is facing dat... THAT is selfpity.
bud i dun hafto smile... i dun NEED to be wearing that mask... in fact dey r two totally diff masks we're tokin about. i am Not pitying myself. n i seriously do not like how i am branded like that. ok maybe optimistic is too general a word. misinterpretations maybe. bud definitely... not evrybody is e one making everyone else laugh n smile, certainly not 95%. n again... i realli do not like tobe branded a selfpity... moreover accused w/o serious thought to it perhaps..?.



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hhaha... n i realised i miss sP quite alot. n i miss 22 la... tis new class is err... New to mi. ok craps... bud whu is e dingdong bugger whu put mi into stage B??!?!!?! y m i seperated?? u chingchong looliiiloolaaa keelaapaalaa piak!! . . .
okies... my class is basically made up of two classes frm last yr. which btw is e norm except fer mi. all thanx to e bugger... ya so dey stay in deir own grps... n i've been like hovering arnd e grps. hhaha... i need more time... YES i need MORE time!! OO
e class is very weird la... i find it very weird... e unexplainable kinda weird. ;p
ohh oh... n dere's tis classmate of mine who's plain crazy. she is veri... weird. hha...
she is alwaes late fer classes... hha n looks super blur de la. n her eyerings r super huge n dark. n imagine her wif fringe covering most of her eyes. tis was who... or rather WAD i was wif fer 30mins on an mrt. she was sick n i was Ponning sch... coincidentally took e same train. n on e train... she was wif her fringe n eyerings...
she started tokin to herself!! she started tellin jokes to herself n laughing to herself. n she stared into thin air n said " i can see you but i can't catch you!!". . . hhaha she is freakin MAD.

n i got my zenMicro. yaY... n my dad is screamin about utility bills reaching skyhigh figures... ill almost definitely blog again tmr. yes...