freak... enough of emo posts. haha i can never turn my blog into an account of daily activities, i just blabber on things going through my mind. like what the hell has it got to do with people who read the blog eh...anyways im probably going to have a hard time getting this posted up later on, u know the connection thing.

ha speaking of the connection, elynn and i were cursing and swearing at singtel because we didnt know it had to do with the earthquake. yea so we started off on msn then decided to meet up since both of us were really bored. she came over and we continued the cursing at the park. then there was this indian guy i got acquainted with who walked past and also sat down to curse at singtel too. ROFL. but after awhile he suddenly asked elynn to be his gf.. yea i was like wtf?! then he went on like in dramas asking whether she was my girl and if she was he would back off right away bla bla... lol she was fuckin freaked out. you should have seen her face it was damn retarded because the guy was grabbing her arms. HAHAHA anyways yea of course i said shes my girl then he sort of let go and tried to sober up a bit... yea he was drunk i think. lol her face was really damn retarded.

then we went to eat kuay chap and the farkin tiko uncle was damn happy when he saw her. he was all gibberish and asked why she so long never go all that shit. damn bull la... OH we had a bet the previous day then i lost, so i was her tree for the whole day. yea she can cling can lie can put bird on my head can do whatever shit she wants... so she was lying on me trying to sleep while standing and waiting for the kuay chap. i was lighting a cigarette. LOLOLOLOL the farking uncle took one glance and immediately diam. all the trying to flirt with her was gone then his MEN'S talk came in. he started asking how many i smoke a day etc. then she said goodbye to the uncle when we were leaving. HAHAHAHAHAH he looked up and didnt make a sound. where got people lidat one... yea that was yesterday night. ha i'm really not good at this rite... having a blog dosent really make you a good story teller.

can somebody tell me why it so god damn hurts this much

Let's talk this over It's not like we're dead Was it something I did Was it something you said
Don't leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be


You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends I know what they say They tell you I'm difficult But so are they
But they don't know me Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew And I thought we could be

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything that i wanted



i'm sorry.

yahar im addicted to staying up late doing shit. just listening to this music and with the rain going on and on outside you know. sometimes it takes a movie or song to get you thinking about yourself, thinking about all thats been going on with ya. it dosent make sense that you are living on something that you dont exactly plan to in your mind. you know how you think something should be done this way and thaty way but in reality you do everything differently. easier said than done eh, i think its all down to yourself. we probably should be defining ourselves at the end of every day and put it beside what we intended it to be. you know both sides of it changes all the time. because we always think and maybe do a lil bit at most, then chuck it aside. so we are back to square one. we probably should have more of these selfish individual sessions. u know think about nothing but yourself and start putting stuff into action. like maybe first try replacing "stuff" with actual things to begin with. looks like its a whole chunk of crap here, it does look like crap. but is it crap, or it turns to crap once i read it again tmr morning. nonetheless, i need a revamp. a hell lot more than my room or whatever else needs.

I'm in love with The Elephant and the Tree!!!
missed the author thing at pageone ydae... dub
someone get me that book please.


you know some things are meant to be,
doesn't mean its not important you know.
It matters a lot and you don want to let go,
but still there's this ringing voice in you that keeps telling you to do it.
so bon voyage,
wherever and whoever you may be with.

sometimes i sneer at people my age who convince themselves they are facing tremendous stress, then tell themselves encouraging and inspirational quotes which they intently allow the rest of earth to see.

c'mon WE ARE ONLY NINETEEN.

i wonder why i always start my posts with i wonder... maybe i wonder too much. but anyways writing something with a catalyst is something very nice to do if you know what i mean, i should learn from miss abel.

some posts back she said something about people wanting to be somebody else other than themselves. ya thats rather puzzling. and something even more puzzling is when people try to hide from being themselves. yeps lets not touch on the more intricate part of human psychology where u can argue that most people are doing this everyday. What puzzles me most is the blatant display of such cowardly expressions. it is something very perturbed. to myself and i hope to that person too.

nonetheless i hope it isnt him. i really hope so.

true;abel



Sometimes i wonder whether i've been true to myself and yet i come to an abrupt end, unconclusively. i did not intend to respond to that matter, which i did. I guess that sums up what you've been saying all along, that there is a undecisive part of me that i don't realise myself.


Btw, i enjoyed myself that night! Bring her again next time ;)

the day's gone. in fact its been gone for 3days ya i noe. i wonder what's up with all the present books this year. at least i wont stay home all bored with nothing to do. but eh presentbooks are more of like a christmas present what?!

anyways i think mummy and abel are two giganticly horrifyingly sweet people. i wonder how come their guys left them. ha that was not very nice. so the thing is they are terrifyingly sweet human beings. the kind that would make u tear like fuck and make u want to die for them bcos they supposedly did such an enormously heartwarming thing for you. dub.




you know i wonder why u can have all your close guy friends and i cant have my handful of female friends. Fine u had your say and your revenge already. i felt awful. Thanks alot. so how do you think we can go on from here? i don't.

crazy;abel

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that phase.
Even your emotions had to let go
In so much space

And when you're out there
Without care,Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much

Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Does that make me crazy
Probably
---------------------------------------------Gnarls Barkley


Regardless Anyways
Happy Birthday my boy.
19's a magical number.
Spend it wisely.
Like the gift.

And it's 2 points away from a Blackjack.
goot goot gawd

Religion; abel

I can go on and on about religion. How I don't subscribe to it, the events leading to being agnostic, how its fanatic believers would be ironically the roots of many historical and possibly future catastrophes.

I believe, like everything else, religion has to be balanced. This is my religion. I give thanks that God has granted me the faith to believe that I could change things for the better just by being alive. But to subscribe to a particular faith through insistence that the bible, the quran or that through reciting the sutra I could ultimately gain enlightenment or be forgiven, I'll pass thank you.

Religion is marketed in many ways, there is the coercion of fear, there are the social support cell groups, word of mouth, entertaining pastors on TV and religious albums. I have had my brush with faith, it didn't blossom, but it didn't disintegrate my concept of a higher being watching over us.

My main reason for being agnostic however, would be my lack of knowledge in this arena. Sure i've read the Bible, and know the many ways of Buddhism. But I''m neither familiar with the Islamic faith nor Hinduism to completely surrender myself to one God, knowing that I can't kowtow to the Ultimate Supreme without sheepishly looking over my shoulder to see if everyone else is doing the same.

So. For the time being, I am open to all 'recommendations' and pitches. But don't put too much faith in it.

Jet

there aren't many occasions when u can say "Hey i'm happy with myself right now"

why do regrets always make up such a big part of our lives?

Ha. the irony.

We are more concerned about what's been done because it's been done.
We are not so concerned about our future because it's not yet been done, we can still change it.

Double irony. Such a simple truth made so difficult to be understood.

dub.




i think what is deep down matters a lot to me. not so the superficial ones.
i pulled your hand along the beach and layed down on the sand. i liked that part;
your willingness to stay and your willingness to divulge. i loved that expression;

i really long to see people in their truest state. sincere longing.
working towards that as well.

a son's ability to see the beautiful world,
a mother's cornea.
sight

you know you've not been a good boy when pple arnd u starts callin u names u dun want to be associated with. and hell they dun have a clue whats goin on at all. when everything's fucked up but u can't look fucked up bcos its goin to make everything even more fucked up when the fucked up pple see u fucked up they get even more fucked up and u in turn also get more fucked up by their fucked up attitude. and everyday i just wake up thinking of you knowing exactly what i need to do but end up forcing myself against that desire because i cant be hundred percent sure ill be able to follow through with my words. and YET along with that i need to face all these fucked up people doing fucked up things.

yea so when u look at things from all the whatever perspectives u see tons of images. when ur grandma's rich it dosen mean ur grandpa's rich too. when ur dad's full it dosen mean ur mum's not hungry. when the school is on holiday it dosen mean u are free. when ur wallet's full of notes it dosen mean u are rich.

HECK. i just want to be happy.


i miss hanging out with eric & co. abel mummy and all of you. i loved all the shit we went through. i want to just drop in on any one of them and feel what i love the most. these multitalented people are mad. and i would gladly love to be mad like them. mummy's gettin so blardy wonderful and stef's just a pain in the ass with her antics. i'm no longer part of eric & co. but ill find my mates soon to rival them. i want to be able to feel the primate touch of music divinity again. i long for it. dub i almost forgot the blardy cute rainbow kid we all love most. lets hope his dad won't bring me to court for this.
























and ofcourse i miss you. but dun take it in any way. its just... me being my fuckerjerk-self.

irreplaceable;abel



gratitude.
commitment.
thousandsofkisses.
thanks.

i think Time flies and in a certain not-so-tedious way maybe people do fly past too. and its pretty often that happens.

was talking to mummy the other night and she is super damn stupid. hahahahahahahahaha. see.


Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
Honestly, I just miss writing, the making music part.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
sometimes being on the road..and talking and talking..I just miss being creative.

Adangling carrotG says:
ohh... i didnt noe u were an organisation and makin so much money. whahahahahah

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
WHAT?

Adangling carrotG says:
walau... u nt singaporean ah.

Adangling carrotG says:
dun even noe our own company. can fight apple leh...

Adangling carrotG says:
LOL

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
I see you as a superbly talented musician, but your brain is really filled with rubbish.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
join my yoga lessons

Adangling carrotG says:
what shit u tokin bout... u really dunno ah

Adangling carrotG says:
eh u damn dumb leh... wah ... aiyah... dunno wad to say

Adangling carrotG says:
actually mine was damn lame also... whahahahah but the fact that u dunno also damn stupid. NO is SUPER STUPID.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
huh?

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
aren't you talking about some children cartoon show?

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
if not how can a building fight an apple?

Adangling carrotG says:
blardy hell... kick you back to taiwan la... u give up the citizenship here la.

Adangling carrotG says:
CREATIVE.

Adangling carrotG says:
nmind. my blood all on the floor i must go mop already.

Adangling carrotG says:
bye

its actually not very farnie now that i read it again. but copy also copy already. Kan Kai dian bah.

Annoyed; abel


I really am annoyed. I can't put up the song :( grrrrrrrr....
Nothing much to update actually. Just pretty peeved. DUB! mummy's entry looks a little too much like mine. ;)

Speaking of Mummy, do you miss her? She was telling me how much she truly is a bona fide cavewoman. How she dosen't realise that one week has passed until people wished her having a great weekend online. And how she's been having the same routine of wake up and write and wake up. Life looks good on her side though, just a lil update on Mummy in case you were wondering.

We were discussing about meeting up with you during the thing coming up. And how i am going to deliberately arrange you and yl's occasional meetup. goot goot! She's so pretty and sizzling hot, you cannot resist her charm and go around breaking girls' hearts again. Poor poor agnes, This brat don't deserve you at all! I really should stop my nonsense.



Hmm... what else.

i've learnt that there are people who would want to be someone else. THAT IS JUST BLOODY FREAKY. GET A FREAKING LIFE.

then again, i'm freakin abel, how does that make me freakin different?

it doesn't.

but then i'm abel.

Watched Transamerica quite some time back. I remember posting something like this, but its gone now. Anyways Felicity Huffman was truly, madly amazing. How can a woman, be so convincingly transsexual?????????????

I watched it with intent. Her voice, her 'manly' facial expressions, and the way she tried to overcompensate her 'masculinity' with deliberate pats to her hair. It was like fresh linen in the over-used patent leather shop. Not sexy, not entirely inspiring, but oh so delightful.

please watch

Why do pple only cherish when its gone?
How does it help to realise something is important, but when its gone?
Will salvaging something help, when its gone?
Can it be the same when its been once lost?

Yea...
"cause you never think the last time is the last time, you think there is more."

i took you for granted. I took you for granted so much that i didnt realise you were slowly shifting away from me. I told you you should have taken me for granted too, then you wouldnt have felt this way. Now i realise i havent done anything you could even put in ur mind, let alone take for granted.

i know it takes pretty hell lot of courage. I need pretty much of that now too.

I'm sorry.

i know u have never thought this form of apology or any statement is worth even a peck of sincerity. What else do u want me to do. This is already the last resort ain't it?








like jl jus said, "Can u pls ask her to give u back your smile?"

bomp


shit i start with stupid words every entry now. anyways

you know nowadays i feel a lot more attached to myself. u know like i feel that i can touch the sky and then get my fingers scalded by the sun. and it feels good to be loved again. wa la la la la.

sorry la. i noe i broke the promise like one day after making it. but i didnt make it voluntarily anyway wad. so no liabilities. and you're not angry too. so everyone's happy. and im just extremely glad that u didnt take his ride. YES as puss as it may seem... im sayin im so freakin happy u didn't. yes im jealous. la la la la la.

and hahahahaahaha He went out with her for dinner and ended up blogging that he had a great day. wahahahahahaha.

i haf no idea why im blogging when i should be sleeping. yea since when i had any idea wad i was doin. so i should go n sleep. Yes im goin to slp NOW so stop nagging already. ASS. LOL. AG. SLT.

It's not easy loving me Yea i agree.
i am such a character
sometimes i dun get a grasp of myself either.
I feel vulnerable
and when i do i keep it to myself.
i feel ecstatic
and when i do i dun show it to the ones who matter too.
So Yes it's not easy loving me
and when u do i let it flow all the way right through.


It's not easy loving you either Yes it is.
you seem happy
i dun have anything to do.
you and your character
i feel i grasp but i dun relate to.
when u want something
never do you say out loud just how u feel.
So Yes it's not easy loving you either
and just as i did i would continue searching my way for you.

la la la

i noe i ahve no business blogging at this hour. its 240am and i have a class tmr at 9. but what shit... since when i gave a damn about such things. BUT come to think of it, i forgot what i wanted to blog about already. so BYE! i think its goin to look damn retarded if i really do publish this out. HECK. im pressing the orange lil button

the throat's killing me. i tried doping myself with strepsils and it worked at first (when i doubled the dosage stated on the box to about 30 sweets a day) but then it kinda lost its effect now. yikes!


so whats up with all the stalking in Singaporeans nowadays. darn. if it was to be a nuisance you succeeded. by leaps and bounds. ahh, whatever. brings us closer anyways. hahaha.


oh i finished the book i bought too. ya so... nothing's up. im goin to get myself a new book soon. its time to sleep. stop jabbing.

on my way home..



i winked at a cat

i smiled to myself

i felt happy i was sick

i danced around the cockroaches

i lighted a cigarette and let it burn

i winked at a cat again

i skipped the caffeine

i bought BIRD'S NEST drink

i lighted another cigarette and let it burn

i said Hi to paikias at the bustop

i smiled to a cat

i lighted my last cigarette and let it burn

i asked the 711 guy if i could buy the papers

i walked past kopitiam and said good morning

i saw my neighbour and offered him my drink

i didnt sweat a single bit despite the distance






all because i was thinking of you.
btw, i also farted the entire walk home.

my throat hurts like hell and the headache wont go away. i think its for all the times i told pple i havent had a headache before. now its payback time. bull.
the talentime pple didnt call either, probly out of it. ah... mite as well. dun think ill recover in time for next week anyway. i think its the Timmy! curse. the stupid band just curses its lead vocalists to lose their voices. Yall play urself lah! Play lah! we dun sing see wad yall can do. play lah! hahaha... DUmb.


noschool day is boring. but i think when ur sick everything's boring. the bus is boring. the tv is boring. the traffic light is boring. the building is boring. the lift is boring. the foodcourt is boring. the rooms are boring. the people look boring. crazy girl looked boring. moore looked boring. even aggy seemed boring. but she sure didnt sound boring. ha. ok brings me to this farnie incident.


this girl called Ag, she had a nice lil doggy. aiya cut the crap... so Ag has a dog.

then tht day she was at my place and had to bathe. but thats nt the point. so she was showering and i woke up and heard her bathing.




me : oie what time already u still bathing ah? dunnit go home meh?

ag: very late meh? i bathe very fast lah 30mins i come out.

me : Mad ah! bathe so long for what? just come out la go home then bathe again. i send u home later come back too late tmr dunnit go sch liao.

ag: orh. eh i stay here can or not? u said u got that female singlet for free rite?

me: yea have. can meh? u dunnit ask your parents ah?

ag: should be okay lah. i just say i at my friend's house do project lor.

me: orh. u come out ask first. if they say ok then i anything.


she continued to bathe... and bathe... and bathe and suddenly


ag: EH! THEN MY PUSSY HOW?!









haahahaahhahahaahhahahahahahahahaa. she called her dog pussy. ya only cats are called pussy. somehow she imagined her dog into a cat. i think leehom's right. she is stupid. hahahahhahaahahhahahahahaa. then my pussy how. silly silly.

AG


u know i liked it when u thrash scolded me for not calling back when i got home.

i liked it when ur face turned so ultimate black when she came up to my house too and brewed that medicine and completely ignoring ur existence.

i liked it when u were jealous of the western auntie who's ever so friendly and weird to me.

i liked it when u pout from your heart when im sick.

i liked it when there were 24 missed calls when i woke up and realised i missed school.

i liked so many of the little things u did in such little time.

you win man... heeheeheehee

AG

dubs.


stayin home for the past two days has been good. away from people, away from school. finally got the sense of belonging back. haa nmind... i think other than one or two, people should be thinking im some psycho. bought a book jus before i got sick, perfect timing.

haahaa Yes im happy like a bird. Chirp Chirp... damn retard. thanks thanks thanks. you know who u are. ok u are agnes. whats up with being mysterious bout that. i cant bring myself to say the other words though... haha THAT only you know what im referring to. you know... i'm starting to miss you already. maybe not going for sch today wasn't that brilliant a decision after all. you'd better sleep well. damn blardy well. haa.


dubs.

altogether now :) ;abel


My friend told me some girl thought I was arrogant and conceited and decided to tell the whole world about it too.

WAAA, get a life la.

I'm not your friend, you want a friendly face go look at posters or better yet talk to someone who can assist you, like a service staff (from any sector other than real estate) or a friend who would tell you, strangers simply do not just smile at each other for no apparent reason.

I make it a point to be polite. I smile when smiled at and keep my distance when my radar tells me this woman will bitch about me somewhere, sometime. It's not becoming of anyone to shout out a comment and disappear into the crowd. Come up to me and say it in my face.

You might just get a smile then. ;)






Now that you got yourself someone who loves you, cherish her like u used to. She might not know me, hell she may not have heard of me either! But she's somebody who matters a lot to me for the plain fact that you matter a lot to her and her to you. Call me paranoid or whatever you want, you are going to get sick of her in a few months' time. of course i hope for the better, but u know i'm always prepared for the worse.

Of course i'm not hurt, i know fully well the reasons behind. though i don't quite grasp the rest of the entry, i just need you to know how sensible you were to have made that decision. even my mum is telling me i was foolish! Maybe the two of you should sit down and have some tea to chat about "sensible" topics while i sit around fiddling with lego and barbie.

to update a bit of my life: i've been jetting here and there quite a bit recently. wasn't allowed to call u that day, mr.Tan is a very strict person indeed. i'm sure u missed him. heehee...


"Money might determine who gets what opportunities, but as the years go by, you measure your personal bank account by who loves you, how they love you, and whether the world is a better place because you were born."

-Warren Buffett


i'm getting soo hungry. you know mr.Buffett that without money i cannot really go fill my stomach with the countless BUFFETS available. Think about it Warren! ;p

omg omg omg...





i dun like to be misunderstood. not that i care how pple look at me... actually i do but nt the area im tokin bout now which really like only i noe wad the hell im tokin bout now. lol so anyways... i dun like those who matter to misunderstand me, i mean... i dunwan them to misunderstand my intentions.


abel ah abel... if ur thinking like how others do... then smack me pls. this is really important. u know its nt bcos ur second best... its not bcos u agreed or whatever... its not whatever shit pple can think of. what makes u think i will jeopardize our relationship with those shit. if thats not what ur thinking... wahahahha then good. at least it shows our understanding is there. hmm... u havent been blogging here lately too. blardy rich ass. wusp. i miss u like freak. and u freakin didnt call me when u were back that day. ASS.



yikes. i didnt noe pple looked at me that way. but it really dosent matter now... i mean ok lar... since im perceived to be like that already then u win lor. just good luck lah... i really dun want anything not very nice to happen anyway. So... tsk actually i dun even noe why the hell im explaining myself rite now... bcos like... ehhhh i still dunno wad to say. whahahahahaha. anyways... i hope pple start to think otherwise about me. at least one did. and thats really nice to know. thanks beautician. ;)








i really dun like what im doing now. i really shouldnt be smoking. i should be really driven. i should noe what i want. but at least im sensing my rebirth. wahahahah. rebirth. reborn. ;p i think a lot of e credit has to go to aggy. she did wad most couldnt do. and u noe... i cant call her ass. i cant bring myself to. bcos its wrong.









i can only call her ANUS. whahahahahaa.

yikes! she's the girl.

as dumb as it may seem... i dont want anybody else. too bad for me. now im easily contented. Foolish fool.

to miss something u never had. to miss somebody who never was.

and she's right there talking to me...




wow. ain't a good feeling. i can never let go.

my breath stinks,
i look old.
my fingers stink,
my teeth are yellow.


Guess who i am.

















im a freakin retard smoker.

and a freakin smoker who cant let go, not cigarettes something else.
and a freakin smoker who lost his bunch of keys and his favourite keychain.
bull.

I'm sorry. I'm really very sorry. :)
to all of you. You and You.










i'm losing respect for myself.

thanks;abel


Time's catching up on me real fast, i don't really have a clue what i intend to do for the next five or ten years. I know this is very unlike me, well.. i'm not a saint am i?

I've been wearing lots of tshirts lately, though i'm still the pretty little me! I've been hassling about around the world in search of dollars, albeit the money goes into the account at home. How ironic!


to mr.tay:

No mulling over what’s lost or gained. We look forward, sometimes we stay awhile on the spot to enjoy the scenery. But the world doesn’t wait for us. So we have to keep going.

And i really don’t have to remind you again what words can do. Think before you say anything, because if you don’t, it usually comes out wrong and unintentional. We wouldn’t want that would we?

I've said those somewhere else too, i realise they take on an entirely different meaning here. Anyways, so now i know

one hour of devotion + one hour of tolerance

do not equal two hours of Love.

but i'm sure we'll work something out won't we?

It's terribly harsh for me to take but i've been through breakups with you TWICE already, so it really does not hurt as much. So while i continue to wait, Be good!

Hee ;p

sometimes people just don't happen. it's not like i didn't try over and over again. if it's wrong then u do it the right way, it's your turn anyway. long ago dued.

YAY. I'm happy. So are you for me. Thanks alot. hahaha. Look at my smile... :D

why should anybody be pondering between somebody who wants u to be happy and one who dosen't really care as much. isn't it obvious?


brrrrrrrraabs.

lets not care about all the whys whats hows. we'll see how everything goes.

yeps so anyways... HAHAHAHAHA. apart from the fallin off the bed under the blanket and the Eat Me incidents, she managed another shit.

i was calling abel in the middle of the night thinking she should be awake.


"Halo?"

"oie go drink leh"

"eh i sleeping already lah... Dun play"

"tsk... u pig ah. wake up la!"

"i'm not going to say i love you on the fone. i know tis is some kind of prank"

"HUH?!"

"aiya i really sleeping already... goodnite laaa"

"wake up la... i cant sleep. we go eat prata."

"okay la okay la... i luv u i luv u! muackmuackmuack!
now can i go back to sleep? yawns "

"Siao ah! What the hell u tokin about!"

"ehh what show is this? i really sleeping halfway lehhh"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"

"Idiot lahh... i hang up already. Gdnite"

-Dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo-




Silly silly sleeptalk. :D







yikes.
school's fun. school's not fun. so tmr's a welcomed dreadful day.

There was a boy. There was a girl. There was another girl.

The boy and one girl had known each other for four years since. Throughout the four years, they gave each other support and were there for each other in times of any occasion. They shared joy and sadness. they were the best of soulmates. Best friends.

There was this other girl the boy met. He fell in love with her, but was rejected on numerous occasions. She would never tell, he would never know. Of course, in times of such adversity the boy's best friend was there for him.

One day, while chatting around with another friend, the girl teared. The girl was worried sick for the boy. She despised the situation the boy is in, she wanted him happy. She loved him. The friend told the boy.

The boy was touched. The boy asked the girl, the girl confessed, they got together. The girl is very happy, extremely. The boy was happy, but slowly got confused. Where is he going to place the other girl now. Is is just gratitude he has for his best friend, or did he do it out of love.

she would never tell.
he would never know.
she would love him.

2girls and a guy.







Skater Boi.

Utterly Missing.



shitty. im supposed to be sleeping. Bcos i haven slept for 2 days. But i'm not sleeping yet. I wonder why. hahahaha. mad.

We are so stupid to have done it. We need to rethink. We can turn the clock back. We rawk.

Things look complicated. But the more complex they look, the simpler they actually are. Easy... Feel. Think. Do. Done.

Will we last? There is no point in even getting into it again if we already know we're not going to make it for long.



Should we?
Ofcos not.

and the story of abel and disabeled goes on...

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只想回头

除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

是否太晚 路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边

你能体谅 我有雨天
偶尔胆怯 你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现

谁能体谅 我的雨天
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

i kind of start to think abt how i see myself... in the long term. If i continue this bullshit way of living, im going to end up like.... bullshit.

A person who stood by you every moment of your life, a person who is always the first to worry about you, a person who feels happier over things in your life than her own, a person who was always there when the other was no where to be found.... deserves to be loved, right?


of course. (:

Used to it. Forgettable habits.

Okays u know we sometimes have to settle for second best in life, because we cant always get what we want. If this is what's going to happen when i persist, i would rather not. If everything u said is true, so true that u can say it in your heart, then maybe you think all these while i haven't been real enough when our friendship grew. So be it this or that, i'll just have to wait for you to start thinking Hey! He's just a buddy and he's treating me like one too. Nothing more than that.

yeps... lets hope u realise i would give up any other thoughts if it means i wont even be on the same terms with you like before. That you probably don't agree, i very much hold the same stubborness as you, that i dont want anything i do to affect the whole group, which resulted in a lot of ... holding back. Although the desire to change things and turn the clock back, i think i have even more desire to not lose you as a friend. I'll take whatever comes my way, this is life isn't it? Give and take.

So will you pls con't being my friend?
because i really am hating myself for such a situation now. I can't talk to you, you won't talk to me either. If i'm not going to be in your life, i certainly don't want this to be the reason for.


Okays. I've given my thoughts. Yea, i know you can ignore this and continue setting up your barriers. I'm not hoping for much understanding either, because it is my fault.

being the ever-optimistic that i am, i'm off to collect my positive and favourable scan results. yea... not many people knows what i'm talking about. a lot of people dont care anyways.

everything people do can be the result of devotion.
sacrifices can be made and left unknown.
at the end of the day, it simply boils down to your desire.

u can run, but there is no way u can hide.
and when things reach the end, will u be able to smile.. to yourself?

I just want you to be happy.

;abel



Is this laughing matter? What's wrong with you. Shouldn't you tell your loved ones what you are going through? I thought the very least you would have told her, it's uncomprehensible.

Still, i hope you get well. I hope there really is nothing wrong with your head, i want it back as silly as it is. HMMPH. It's so cold here, i wonder how you live happily like u seem to be. I love to cook in your house and watch tv with norman at my feet. It is so quiet you can hear the crickets at night and a rooster at 3 in the morning. 3am !!! A confused rooster. And a lost one i suppose.

Cooked some instant noodles but could hardly eat. Food tastes funny when YOU are sick. So I left it on the table....there's alot left, couldn't bear to throw it, but I know nobody's going to eat it the next morning. I'm not sure if not emptying it into the bin makes me feel less guilty. Maybe it does.

There is a lot of stuff that I want to say, maybe to make me feel better when I'm heard, maybe to justify, maybe not to, maybe to share beautiful things, maybe to share unfortunate moments, maybe to get things off my chest.

I will not do that today, because some things are really not meant for your ears, but I'll try to do that with music ok? I'm too pensive when I write sometimes....and I'm not 'too talented', I'm just too egoistical. You are not pensive, you just brood and write. Absolutely confusing for the reader.

I have many stories to tell but not all suitable over internet.... but when you try to round off the edges a bit, it doesn't come out the way it should be. Bitter, gritty, acidic, hilarious, pungent or a mild sweet after taste. Life is amazing.

I'm writing nonsensical content. Perhaps i'm too tired, perhaps i should wash my hands off you, perhaps you're too dear to me.

I will sleep a while more, since the house is silent and quiet.



She is SO PRETTY! ;p

now that i've got it out of the way... its time to get all the stuff back.

i mean myself back.

and i dunno wads wrong with her. i dun like it. why not be yourself. again, i don't know anything. so i can only shut up.




__________________________________________________________________________

life;abel



you reek of alcohol
you name a metaphor
i call you a coward
i say, you retarded

you turn and look
you see and sob
you picked the lice
you find demise

i see the terminal
i hope she matters
i can't, be bothered
i feel distorted

life is shit
shit happens
move on, you creep
that's all i desire


I'm not going to continue this. It's getting boorish. It would if i do.

;abel (LAST PART, DO NOT ADD ON, I WILL KILL YOU)

No, it dosen't. Nonetheless, i want you to be happy!

And i'm going to post this public, to show what a heartless creep you are.

GOOT NAITE.
______________________________________________________________

;sayandsay

just go n sleep lah. i think u r no.2, right behind her. wahahhaah. i think i hear alot of hmphs. yea like alot of pple read this, i am so farkin bhb. but yea... just noe at least u'll be the last to be given up. lol. if it helps.

sleep.

______________________________________________________________

;abel

YEA right. Stop acting tough when you are such a softie. who was the one who even turned your-love down when she(bitch) threatened to kill herself.

Mate, simply stop brooding and show how crazy you are over her. Physically.




goot gawd. You are saying you would give me up too. what am i doing here ?? I should be sleeping. Why give a damn about this hearltess creep ?? ;p
______________________________________________________________

;sayandsay


hahhahahahah. eh this is damn cool la.

yea... i noe that simple truth. but there's no simple way to turn it off...

and pls... cant be bothered. pls swear as much as u can if it helps. wake her up.

yes... i KNOW. CONTRADICTING. SELFMUSING. IRONICALLY. WHATABOUTMYSELF.

but seriously. i would do anything for her. i'll lose everything if it needs be. yes even u abel. much less anybody else.

______________________________________________________________

;abel


PLEASE do not add on to this. It is so un-cool to be talking like this and for everybody to see, plus it is 630am and i need a wink.

Okay it is simple. and simply put, as simple as it is, quite simply, she's not liking you back. Simple, ain't it?

Now deal with your other girl i sweared at.


______________________________________________________________


; sayandsay again


NOPES. haha. eh we're so darn stupid to tok like this. BUT thanks lah girl. really. for being thr whenever i needed it.



it ain't complicated lah. u noe how i get all insecure and totally absurd when i dun know what i need to know. but it is simple now. i still like her. simple rite. haha. i dunno how long its going to last. but thats not important. and its been so long already anyway. so its simple. i like her. very much. :D

______________________________________________________________

;abel


Everything seems so complicated it bothers me.
but i'm always here if you need me.



_______________________________________________________________


delirious delirious. ; sayandsay




when it is right in front of u and u cant get it.

it means life's going gets tough.

and it sucks.

pls stop me.







if it means everything else is taken away from me, i'll do it. save me.

enormous; abel



there were times when i thought somehow you would wriggle your way out.

and then i felt her snobbery and thought she was a player.

little did i know i would be thinking you to be a brooder.

i will never forget the things you said in that drunken stupor.

but never will i leave you fragile.

now i hope things turn out fine.

it's time both of you listen to your hearts.

it would be such a pity it does not.

an enormous pity.





SNOUTS

She's cold and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing
She pushed me in the pool at our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams but I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems she's the one I'm after

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on one hundred proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me, the more I adore her
What can I do - I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

And when she sees it me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up yet
Cause every word she's every said
Is still ringing in my head Still ringing in my head

She's cold and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing
Knows just what to say so my whole day is ruined
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery She's too much for me
But I keep coming back for more
She's just the girl I'm looking for

the click five ; just the girl

-my goodness.

put yourself in the shoes of the girl. you keep on ignoring him, you push him away, you avoid him, you do whatever you can to get him to leave you alone.. and yet, YET he still keeps coming back. WHAT THE. i mean, if i were the girl i would be supremely irritated. i mean, come on and LEAVE ALREADY!




italics were gobbled off hong:jas's blog. is that what im doing? am i doing all those irritating shit? am i in my own world? am i over-reacting? try being sucked by this immense feel for as long as i've done. and try to keep your hold like what everybody is trying to tell me to. impossible.


CRAZY. LOL.

bridge; abel


Waltzing in and out.

"We can smile about the happy times, hell we'll even smile about the hard times."

What's the biggie?

Today I played bridge with my friends. The last time we did that was about 200 years ago. I almost forgot about my luck with gambling (or the lack of it). I look at my friends and think, hell our group's dynamics can be so bizarre, but 13 year-old friends don't just disappear. They stick around.

We want to throttle each other's throats sometimes, and our eccentricities sometimes gets the better of us, but......no buts, I still get the urge of wanting to smack them.

i am bored. i really am very bored. i am so bored i am on the verge of tears. i am so bored i'm going to breakdown any minute.

i am so bored bcos i am sick. i am so bored bcos i am so tired. i am so bored bcos i am so sick and tired. i am so bored bcos i'm sick and tired of u.

i am so bored bcos i am missing. i am so bored bcos i am longing. i am so bored bcos i am missing and longing. i am so bored bcos i'm missing u.

i am so bored. i really am very bored. i am so bored i am on the verge of tears. i am so bored i'm going to breakdown any minute.

i am so bored i am writing this. i am so bored i should go to sleep. i am so bored i would wake up tmr bored. i am so bored i should kill myself to keep me busy.


i am so bored.

wahahaha... abel's entry lasted a few hours again. and its bcos of tis darn lame retarded boring thing im goin to do.


How old were you?: 16
Where did you go to school?: i go to school by taking 13 at the bustop.
Where did you work?: at the table.
Where did you live?: in the house.
Where did you hang out?: hmm... i was busy with my O's. didnt do much of the laundry.
How was your hair style?: okay lah. no major illness.
Did you wear braces?: nopes. clothes.
Did you wear glasses?: okay... to be exact i wore shirts and pants and underwear.
Who was your best friend?: erm... academically, Amos was the best in class.
Who was your regular-person crush?: nah. too young to noe that crushes come in different sizes.
Who was your celebrity crush?: i think that time sunyanzi had a crush on andy lau.
How many tattoos did you have?: dunno whr to buy.
How many piercings did you have?: nobody would sell.
What car did you drive?: car-zy.
What was your favorite band/group?: they were living things.
What was your worst fear?: i used to fear lizards. yea thats the worse compared to O's and and the other major fears.
Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: got use meh. they dunhaf eyes and nostrils to get smoked wad.
Had you driven yet?: u mean car-zy?
Had you been arrested?: dunno. havent read till that part of the story yet.
Had you been to a real party yet?: nah... i never liked that madrid team.
Had your heart broken?: eh? no idea. wasnt allowed to peek.
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: eh? cancel when apprpriate?

okay its tired trying to Da Fei Suo Wen already. I DONT WANT TO CONT TIS LAME THING!!


How old are you?: 18 lah
What grade are you in?: nb. act angmo. i am Year 3. poly year 3 okay. nb grade wad. u think buy bird nest ah
Where do you go to school?: Poly lah. CB
Where do you work?: CB! ask so many qns obviously i studying rite. then guai lan come ask one stupid whr do u work. like i ask u are girl anot u say yes. then i ask u so whr's ur dick?
Where do you live?: home.
Where do you hang out?: lol. under the sun.
Do you have braces?: dunhaf
Do you wear glasses?: dunhaf
Who is your best friend?: dunhaf
Still talk to any of your old friends?: dunhaf
Who is your celebrity crush?: dunhaf
How many piercings do you have: dunhaf
How many tattoos?: dunhaf
What kind of car do you have?: NNB. keep askin things that i dunhaf. FARK OFF.
What is your favorite band/group?: DUN HAF LAH
What is your biggest fear?: YOU
Have you been arrested since?: nb. i calling mata to catch you.
Has your heart been broken?: ...
Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: got grandchild

the stars are shining ever so brightly.
do i have to announce everytime i write something that i'm Abel?
we need to get some sort of differentiation going on soon.
Hee that's your job carrot.




de-stress post;

I used to think i would have a flying horse as a pet, not unlike pegasus. I would fly to school every morning, instead of waking up and waiting for the school bus. In fact, she would fly to my window and wait for me mid air while i grab my school bag. She would be white and shimmering. I can do without the horn though, not much use for it unless i need something to hold on to for balance. She likes grass (low maintenance) and shits in space (so that it floats around instead of having me clean it up). Her weakness is chocolate and grass (as in weed). (Realistically she needs a flaw, she would eat my chocolate from the fridge and i would be very bugged. In fact i would be so bugged i would ignore her for 2 hours. I don't have weed at home, she gets her yearly fix from Guantanamo)


i'm feeling slightly oldish again.
goot goot goot. This is a stupid entry. I will write another one when i stop grinding my teeth. I thought of this entry because my sisters are making the pasta again! ;)

This sucks. yea ABEL im sorry ur post appeared for only a few hours.

u know im absolutely serious now.
i tell u if i die after tonight im tellin u i was with huiling. u know going to meet somebody in this state is scaring the shit out of me. really... i love who im supposed to love. if ur reading this u know i love u in some way or another. especially those who know they should be loved by me, u know i really do. and i really regret not going to collect my phones now... i love you too!







im going out. haha i noe this is real farkin puss. u haf no idea wads ahead of me in this long long night. be with me. . . . :) . . .

Hi all =)
I'm Abel and our friend here has graciously allowed me to share this blog with him, albeit my constant naggings. I'm in the music business and have been slogging for 6years. Had the fortune of meeting amazing talents from around Asia. Am equally happy belting out my favourite tunes in acoustically perfect bathrooms or concert halls. Am intolerant of selfish behaviour. This has to end abruptly since i'm not good at concluding.

oh p.s. This blog is now associated with cooldom because i'm part of it and according to Eric, i have a ******* account so i'm cool. :p



anyways here's my first entry with a bit of editing here and there it looks as good as new.

planning ahead;

My dad told me today that i have to plan ahead. This topic comes up so often in our daily conversation that it is impossible to give it further thought. It doesn't help that the media would pull you up just to bring you down, even if there is such thing as gravity and expiry dates. I do believe in choosing our destiny, the romantic notion of going against all odds, but the natural cycle of life means that at some point, we'll have to work with the tide to create a bigger wave.

The idea of cramming my time with every possible assignments that would fatten my bank account never appealed to me. I sometimes don't have time to smell the flowers or admire the weeds on my balcony. All the new tricks and words that Jonah learnt were not taught by me. I could only succumb to his pleas of diiping his saliva coated finger into the sugar jar when i do spend time with him and my coffee. My dad's pate is looking shinier, my mum's looking shorter, my sister had a new hair colour and the other one went to santorini. I'm no sentimental fool, but it would be nice if i could have been around. But no less importantly, what have i done with the time?

Sometimes the realisation of a thousand things to be done does grip me by the shoulders so tightly that my mind goes a complete blank. I think that's what you call a panic attack. And the always childish conclusion of "I don't want to do ANYTHING" does mean that i have buckled and that they have won. To tell you the truth, i cannot stand to be defeated, and therefore will win albeit furtively on other grounds. Furtive because a secret success is weirdly wonderfully gratifying.

My friend told me sometime ago about his unfortunate experience at an American airport and how he was roughly treated since he looked like he could be a muslim extremist. After going through all his belongings and stern interrogation, they finally released him, unabashed. He then muttered almost inaudibly,

"#$%^ you very much."

The girl, who had obviously not heard him clearly, answered, "You are welcome." He took his stuff and left.

This isn't really getting anywhere. Random thoughts my dear. Random thoughts of Abel.

i haven been writing anyting sensible here for quite a long time. haha its all the emo crap and the cheena stuff eric so loves and hates. anyways... you know

HOliDAYs are so damn freakin boring. yea... not unless i throw away my laziness and take up the thousand and one jobs on offer. but still... even if i work, it'll still be boring rite. i really am going to cherish my last sem of school. seriously. i think school life is way too good to just waste away. very late to realise that now... at least i do.


dub dub dub. find me! will you pls find me? hahaha. im going to find myself. its damn corny la... but i really am going to. haha. time to pack bag and fly off to somewhere i cant contact anybody i noe. okays maybe one or two... when i run out of money. +grins+


okays abit of emo... i think its just me. ill again just end up thinking and aching after awhile. i think i should just do away with all the what-does-it-mean kinda broodings. sim ple sim ple. keep it sim ple.


do i look like i have a lot of friends? i think i do... but seriously i don't u know. i really don't.

fark i think alot of people is going to take this negatively
...haha but i pity them...

draaftie 1

风一直暖暖地刮 我的心却被ge下
回头没有了牵挂 是否还是中意他

重复上演的潇洒 真的不是故意吗
我真的不想回答 到底是我错了吗


是我太傻 喜欢何必告诉她
藏在心里 没有什么好挣扎
哭泣自己 承受就好了啊

是我太傻 一再让她想办法
一次一次 重来的心碎劈叉
不想理会 只想让自己傻


我真的一直告诉她 她真的一直不回答
这样下去就那样啊 就一直重复上演吧

就告诉我吧 。。。

又得重来一次了是吗?

im trying really really hard already. its easier now bcos ive been trying for so long. but how long can i go on... am i really that complicated?

TENS

TEN EMOTIONS.

1. are you missing someone right now: yea
2. are you happy: not really
3. are you talking to anyone right now: msn then yea
4. are you bored: im doing this.
5. are you german: no, singaporean.
6. are you brazilian: i jus said im sg
7. are you french: are you?
8. are you Italian: haha. maybe. siao.
9. are your parents still married: ofcos
10. do you like someone right now: yeaa

TEN FAVORITES.

1. televison show: a few
2. flower: lol
3. color: black white
4. sport: SOCCERRRRRRR
5. mall: jamal-l. lol.
6. music: raw
7. food: food.
8. drink: greentea
9. animal: lol
10. country: sg

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: singapore
2. hair color: black
4. hair length: wait... i go find my ruler.
5. eye color: black
6. shoe size: eh? err 12 i think.
7. mood: bahh
8. orientation: hah... what?
9. available?: yikes
10. lefty/righty: sleepy

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: have you not?
2. do you believe in love: yea
3. have you ever been heartbroken: yea
4. have you ever broken someone's heart?: yea
5. have you ever fallen for your best friend?: aie... siao.
6. have you ever liked someone but never toldthem: yea
7. are you afraid of commitment: no lahh
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: siao. if u noe then not secret le wad. eh damn dumb leh


TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or lust: love
2. hard liquor or beer: beer
3. night or day: night
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: internet
6. pepsi or coke: pepsi
7. wild night out or romantic night: as long as its breezy
8. colored pictures or black and white: lol. see first.
9. phone or in person: person.
10. aim or myspace: ahhhh

TEN HAVE YOU EVER.
1. ever been caught sneaking out: eh why do i hafta sneak out
2. ever skinny dipped: nope
3. done something you regret: had to
4. ever bungee jumped: noo shitty i want to
5. ever been on a boat: yea
6. ever finished an entire jaw breaker: simi
7. ever wanted someone so badly it hurt: terribly
8. ever been caught by your parents with a hickey?: ohh... haha no. wads a hickey
9. ever danced in the rain?: ever danced in snow?
10.ever loved your ex while you were in a new relationship?: NOOOO

the perfect voice

bullshit.

it finally came to end. or has it? im buying it again and again...
yet again and again it pops up...


i want you to tell me what exactly is going on. just wtf.

darn... mum's in hospital for minor stroke and shes staying thr for 5days. nothing's wrong jus staying for observation i was told. hell week continues.

at the hospital saw eric and he told me pp's grandma's in hospital too and on the same level as my mum. yea so we popped by to say Hi for abt a min or two.

was considering abt goin to HK wif eric but looks like thrs no way i can make it. besides, the girls would be in HK for maybe at most a day or two that coincides with my stay thr. so its not very tempting.

ARGHh... so many things happen in so little time. i tot the week would be pretty much float around disillusioned and missing a certain somebody. looks like its getting worse. coupled with all the shit stuff thats happening... my longing's getting worse. faster come back. broarr... i shudnt even be feelin this way. this sucks. bcos its pretty much unrequited.


anyways the song's halfway through. had no time these two days. give me a few more days' grace.

draft2 (halfdone melody)

OS: 我真的会祝福你 只要你开心 我什么都可以

爱情来了 没有对跟错
两个人相爱 真的不用管这么多

如果还有别人喜欢你
和他说声对不起
就这样 开始你们的回忆


一定一定要告诉我
你们之间的秘密
没有什么好可惜
再拖就成了悲剧

一定一定会喜欢你
这是爱情的游戏
虽然没你很可惜
至少还有我自己

千万不要 不要觉得对不起
我从来 都不是一个介入的工具

过去发生的难题 统统抛到脑后去
顿时发现笨自己 现在才懂得珍惜

一定一定要告诉我
你们之间的秘密
没有什么好可惜
再拖就成了悲剧

一定一定会喜欢你
这是爱情的游戏
虽然没你很可惜
至少还有我自己

一定一定会爱着你
控制不了的情绪
但已不会再犹豫
可能存在的心灵

我真的不是故意 耽误你们的爱意

01) What is ur phone type? samsung i-dunno-wad-model

02) What's the last 3 digits of your mobile number? 296

03) What does the 2nd message in your inbox say? Wahaha i tot u miss baolianjie... blabla

04) Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M? Mcdonald's Delivery

05) Who's the last person you rang? laoda CXian

06) Who was your last missed call from? elynn

07) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D? dabomu

08) What does the last message in your inbox say? Yeh in my dreams

09) Who's the 3rd person who comes up under J? Jasmine

10) Go to your Sent Items ..what does the 5th msg say? bon voyage and blabla

11) Who's the 4th person who comes up under S? Saleem

12) What your network provider? singtel

13) How many messages are currently in your inbox? 37

14) What do you have as your background? i cant figure out either. the pic jus happened to be in the phone and it looks good.

15) Who's the 2nd person who comes up under R? Roy

16) Who do you have on speed dial 3? wtf

17) If you're on Pay as you Go, how much credit do you have? obviously i am not.

18) Who's the first person who comes up under C? ceresah

19) How many bars of signal do you currently have? 6

20) What do you have as your main ringtone? some samsung shit

draft1

爱情来了 没有对跟错
两个人相爱 真的不用管这么多

如果还有别人喜欢你 和他说声对不起
就这样 开始你们的回忆

我真的会祝福你 只要你开心 我什么都可以


一定一定要告诉我
你们之间的秘密
没有什么好可惜
再拖就成了悲剧

一定一定会喜欢你
这是爱情的游戏
虽然没你很可惜
至少还有我自己


千万不要 不要觉得对不起
我从来都不是一个介入的工具

过去发生的难题 统统抛到脑后去
顿时发现笨自己 现在才懂得珍惜

一定一定要告诉我
你们之间的秘密
没有什么好可惜
再拖就成了悲剧

一定一定会喜欢你
这是爱情的游戏
虽然没你很可惜
至少还有我自己

一定一定会爱着你
控制不了的情绪
但已不会再犹豫
可能存在的心灵

我真的不是故意 耽误你们的爱意

i'll miss you

























like crazy

i think that entry lasted like afew hours. but who cares.

i think i need a rest. i am very tired. probly cant take it anymore.
i have no idea wads goin on. i cant find out either.
everything's so weird its incomprehensible.
i dun noe why boundaries have to be set up.
i dun noe why things need to be done this way.
still its not a change of heart. no way thats possible.
although it probly is something good for me.

but im jus tired. sick-of-it tired.
















lucky im goin out like right now.

idolisation is like a very imaginary situation to be in. u noe ... u'll get lost. u'll start dreamin a bit... worse to worse u get sucked in. but it is still an imaginary world. so the only thing u have to do... is to bring yourself back to earth through your life. and your life consists of your friends, your family, your neighbour, your enemy, your teacher...


simple, ain't it?
gettin lost in idols... not a big deal. =)


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weyhey... today sortof sucked.

first i got stood up after waiting like 3hrs. THIS SUCKS.

then i saw cheryl and somehow she had the time to entertain me. seriously... she either was doin some stupid walk-around-town-for-fun stunt or she got ditched. anyway she accompanied me after i told her i got stood up ^up^^^^there^ yea... for 3hrs. still... both of us were feelin down for some reason (yea thats why i said she probly got ditched) and started gettin dulan about almost everything. yea so this part sucked too.

met up with jj for dinner so cheryl shooed off... i think she cont'd her stupid stunt bcos i saw her afterwards at the movies. anyway... jj dinner. saw victor joe. lol. and the food sucked. and the auntie sellin the food sucked too. and the walking back to taka sucked even more. Weyhey saw jasmin on e way back to taka so it reduced the suck factor a bit. and then back at taka Gramophone didnt suck too much either. but overall this part sucked abit too.

yea and then the movie part. met up at tcc which didnt haf a bloody toilet and i was almost bursting into pee (u noe how pple burst into tears means he/she is crying). yeps so tcc. and then movie. and the movie sortof sucked that it didnt scare pple as much as it should. its another of those cheap scare comedy fark show. and then supper sucked too. whr the hell is the nightlife at LPS. its like heh? why only satay? so this part sucked abit other than the company.

so the day sucked.


and the Mr.Bean teddy stayed in my pocket the whole night. so that sucked too. a lot.

did you know i hate drinkers...









who whine and regret only after doing something they dont want to while they were drunk



probly not. pple really do underestimate the consequences of drinking.

u know at times when u simply cannot find a way through things you seemed lost? but the fact that you are finding your way through it means u are already on your way out of this misery, so you are on the right path. always said that avoiding it ain't going to change things, so why not face it? people all do get depressed and lost at times, think of the path you want to take and you wil invariably see the oasis you've been longing for. Easily said huh... u need a companion to see you through tough times, not just on your own. and when ur usual person is not around to tide you through, how easy is it to stand strong? yea find someone else... ofcos you do have more than just one true friend rite? but how easy is it to strike up the understanding you already have.... and how easy it to bring urself to narrate everything thats been torturing yourself all this while.

Life's beautiful... really. you've just got to believe. and let go.












this is for you:

hey hey... how have you been? haha i noe its like retarded since we jus toked like an hour ago. did i ever say how much i appreciate your presence around me when im in the deepest of downs (lol deepest of downs) and doing all you can to try bringing me up. did i say i enjoyed listening to you and your big big theories while seeing you behave in a total contradicting manner. you've been so supportive and cute i dun know wad i've done to deserve you.

HAHA. stop laughing to yourself i noe u are. youve got that beautiful smile and everlasting giggle thats goin to touch so many hearts throughout your life. and behind that smile is this sensible, passionate, deep-thinking, emotional, dedicated, funloving ........... personality i know is the envy of millions.

Thanks ginger! and stop laughing....

haha eh now the fun part, i tell you i think u shud jus keep hanging out with him. its not as if u dun like him lor.... think abt so much for wad, like you dun wanna be with him lidat. i tell you when he starts thinking you are nothing but a clever and smart bitch ... HAHAHA den start crying. u noe i have tons of big big theories waiting. i noe this post is like absolutely redundant and ambiguous. whatever lah...

it is called a CB feeling and it does not feel good. can it ever go away

i think i thrive on doing last min work. the irony is that i quite hate it when i do that. the next irony is i do it all the time. so it boils down to discipline. and it dates all the way back to the olevels. yea very sad. exams are like shitty. i dun see the need for it, probably not to every student, other than those kind... who craves recognition so badly and lala.

things are clearing up! im a brooder! i hope things do clear up. at least ive been acting like it is. and ginger left like super soon. darn. and mummy's not feeling good either. darn darn. nobody bothered to do the stupid quiz too. darn darn darn.


HAA.


i'm giving you a second chance to blog the quiz. it's here... LOL i am so retarded.

3 schools i went to: AiTong, Victoria and Simply Pathetic
3 things in my bag: halo... i dun haf a bag.
3 things i do when i'm stressed: sing, sleep, blog
3 places i go on a daily basis: Msn, my Phone, master door
3 favourite fruits: MANGO watermelon Pear
3 names i go by: xuan, tau suan, Son
3 of my favourite food: Curry, Eggs, Mentos
3 things i m wearing now: shirt pants frown
who is in the house with me? : ehhh dad mum bro? wth... maybe im too boring to understand the qns
who am i thinking of now? : BAH. i shud be thinking of study.
who did i last talk to on the phone? : GINGER!
who did i sit with during 5th period in class? : DEY... im never in class.
who was the last person i uttered love to? : ehhh.... technically Ginger
who gets on my nerves in school? : the school
where is my phone: right here waiting
where do i sleep? : i have a home... believe me.
where is the last place i took a ride to? : just now to j8
what was the last thing i ate? : watermelonn Yellow ones
what colour shirt am i wearing now? : blue
what is the closest thing to me that is blue? : lol... i guess it cant get anything closer than my shirt.
what do i like most about school? : the people
what is my favourite colour? : black, white, dark blue, beige or whatever our skin's colour is
what do i wear more often jeans or shorts? : shorts
what was the last movie i watched? : heh? i cant rmb was it click or lungwhomen. lol.
when did i start school? : hell... i dun wanna rmb.
when did i last go to the mall? : today
when did i last burn something?: last chalet when i burned my hands
3 bloggers to do this: HELL. all of you reading this. you have a blog you do this!

Ginger's back!! things are going to turn out alright again rite... it will everytime she comes back. Just don leave again before my exams end. we have to meet!



i think i shud be going to my books now. notice i don use going BACK to my books. the paper's tmr... DARN









blogstuff:

3 schools i went to: AiTong, Victoria and Simply Pathetic

3 things in my bag: halo... i dun haf a bag.

3 things i do when i'm stressed: sing, sleep, blog

3 places i go on a daily basis: Msn, my Phone, master door

3 favourite fruits: MANGO watermelon Pear

3 names i go by: xuan, tau suan, Son

3 of my favourite food: Curry, Eggs, Mentos

3 things i m wearing now: shirt pants frown

who is in the house with me? : ehhh dad mum bro? wth... maybe im too boring to understand the qns

who am i thinking of now? : BAH. i shud be thinking of study.

who did i last talk to on the phone? : GINGER!

who did i sit with during 5th period in class? : DEY... im never in class.

who was the last person i uttered love to? : ehhh.... technically Ginger

who gets on my nerves in school? : the school

where is my phone: right here waiting

where do i sleep? : i have a home... believe me.

where is the last place i took a ride to? : just now to j8

what was the last thing i ate? : watermelonn Yellow ones

what colour shirt am i wearing now? : blue

what is the closest thing to me that is blue? : lol... i guess it cant get anything closer than my shirt.

what do i like most about school? : the people

what is my favourite colour? : black, white, dark blue, beige or whatever our skin's colour is

what do i wear more often jeans or shorts? : shorts

what was the last movie i watched? : heh? i cant rmb was it click or lungwhomen. lol.

when did i start school? : hell... i dun wanna rmb.

when did i last go to the mall? : today

when did i last burn something?: last chalet when i burned my hands

3 bloggers to do this: HELL. all of you reading this. you have a blog you do this!

have you ever said it aloud... i hate myself with conviction and belief




i just did.

i dunno if it matters to you.. i jus want to say something up here.

i know ive been rather emotional and complicated these couple of days. u know its just the eruption of whats been lying inside all these while. i had no idea wad implications it would bring about or to what effect it will have on you. i have always been a person of vagueness and undecisiveness when affairs of the heart are involved, and i hate it when im like that. i dun noe how everything is going to pan out or what is goin through your mind after all of my probably, Irresponsible outbursts. Kinda regret doing all the shit ive done. But as you probably know(i hope), i haf rather deep feelings for you which cannot be displaced quite as easy as people think. i haf no idea wads going to happen to me or to you or to any other who could be involved, but i truthfully wish that you would not be affected by my own... wrongdoings. Pls dun upset yourself or brood over what definitely is not worth doing those for. Just go back to yourself and be the smiley face i really really hope to see. A real smile from the bottom of your heart. please...





























i love ya.

even running back to you dosen help now














love's devastating..

hey baby.. its no secret to you that i'm one of few words. i cannot simply tell you what i want to say without jotting it down. So here i am (again) at your blog and you decide if it is appropriate to put it out; im saving it as draft.

Time just streams by. And people come and go. And sometimes they stay around for some time, and sometimes they leave, and sometimes they stick around forever. And sometimes time gushes like water from a dam, and there were laughter and booze, and pajama parties and surprises. And it also trickles like a spoilt tap, and there were unkind words and tears and periods of remission. But in no point of time should we ever remain in that dark dark period. I know what you are thinking, ya i'm too sentimental for my own good. But i still think love is everything. When there is love, there is hope.

The answer is somewhat depressing, and you should be counting your blessings. You should be grateful for all the attention from above and here. You should be working hard and count the chicks when they do hatch. You should be doing alot of things that you may not feel like doing but absolutely have to. You shouldn't be "basking" in your unwillingness to face the music. You probably ought to be less devoted to your love.

But then again, how many things happened in reality today? How many hearts were truly broken? and how much tears freely flowed? Too many. I have no idea why she let it happen, i am in no right to comment either. Baby it hurts seeing you like this, as much as the hurt you go through seeing her like how she is.

You are the perfect man, no doubt. This is the first time i see you in such a horrendous state, giving all and your pumping organ. I can't bear to see the blood dripping when your chest is slit open. As difficult as it is, life goes on. You made me a better person, i want to make you one too.

She probably is an angel, else there is no other way your delicate tears would have fallen. I would very much like to meet her, to witness what a phenomenon she actually is. But till then, be strong baby.


One Art

The art of losing isn't hard to master; so many things seem filled with the intent to be lost that their loss is no disaster.

Lose something every day. Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent. The art of losing isn't hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster: places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel. None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went. The art of losing isn't hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent. I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.

Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident the art of losing's not too hard to master though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

-Elizabeth Bishop





i suppose u know who i am, don't you?

Xuan: yea i noe who u r... i read this the same way everybody did. u published it lar... nt draft. stupid...

i missed WGB's gig!!!! shitty shit...



emotions are good.
being emotional isn't.
so the next best thing is to stop thinking and head off for cooling down.

u need emotions for music.
music IS emotional.
so the next best thing is to bask in that shallow fulfilment.

again emotions are good.
emotionally overwhelmed.
so the next worst thing is how do i live without you.

bahh.


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okay next up. hahahaha. i copied my fren's fark blog's fark entry. like wtf. reallie farkin farnie. dat ass.... i hope he dosen mind me koping that entry. but hey i acknowledged its frm HIS blog wad. yea if he wants a link placed here then tell me. but thats nt the point. the point is it is so damn farked up farnie. oh yea... i noe the 1st part was so freakin emo and tis part jus seems out of place. both were written on diff days anyway. i jus wan to add on and not haf one entry dedicated to that farked up farnie blog's farked up farnie entry.

here it is...

Saturday, August 05, 2006

ULTIMATE SKILL
ooooh...jus finish watchin superband...quite a boring finale. The best performance tonite i tink is J3 jazz version of xiao wei, it realli farkin good man. Anyway, i'm not goin to talk abt superband competition in tis entry as u can see in my title, i'm goin to talk abt a ultimate skill aka 蓋世武功 that i have recently mastered after yrs of training.

The ultimate skill is called LIVING IN YOUR OWN WORLD aka LIYOW. This set of skill has actualli nine levels, with increase of each level means that u are getting better in living in your own world. And recently, i have reach the ninth level aka 九重天 of the skill. this is a very profound skill and not many ppl are suitable to learn, they may go bersek aka 走火入魔. i have practise the skill since primary 3 and only after 10 years of endless practise i can attain the ninth level of LIYOW.

i only discovered that i've reached the last level of LIYOW ytd becos of one incident. So the story goes, i went to SP stadium to meet koon cos we are goin to eat sakae sushi later wif xy and eunice and he was dere to give support to his girlfrens. and so i reach dere, called him, den he told me where he is, so i went to look for him. Then, i saw where he is and then the only thing in my mind is to go to where he is standing. So i walk and walk, when i'm near him, he suddenly scold me for being dao. of cos, i was like WTF. And then i tink he pointed to a direction, and dere, only ard 2 meters away frm him was a grp of gals frm my class. Apparently, they have called out my name as i was walkin nearer, but i dint bother abt them, dats why koon scold me for being dao. But in fact, i dint hear aniting, i was onli concentrating on walking to where koon was. And dada, i have finally attained the final level of LIYOW. Cool man.

So if u r interested in LIYOW, pls call my hotline, u noe wads my number, and then i will evaluate to see if u are suitable for the skill be4 u start practising the skill. I wonder what the world will be like if everyone mastered the skills?

i've had the weirdest of dreams last night. hahaha.

first i dream of me chatting with Harry Kewell while jogging into a stadium to lineup before a match. and we were haolianing about our "little baloon tube" that writes when we made our debuts for our club (so apparently we were in the same club). mine was against some european club starting B. i cant rmb what it was. i think it was Benfica. hahahahahaha. and we were lining up against England. farnie. so kewell and i were shaking hands with gerard and beckham. hahaha. so darn lame.

and then the next part of the dream had me chasing qiuling around this rather huge sp campus. YEA before jumping... it is literally chasing. i think we were at this lab and then she walked out to this water cooler and i somehow switched her into sunyanzi. wahahah. and she left the floor. so i started chasing after her. then chase chase chase i saw joanne at a balcony. asked her for directions and continued chasing. and when i reached the big space in front of the cafe and convention centre in SP, there was this igloo like structure that some "officials: were standing by. then i cont chasing past the IGLOO and poof!

it became another scene. i am in front of a screen and somehow im at sunyanzi's blog that ive nvr seen before. and there are like 2 blogs. add was like #####.#####.com and #####2.#####.com
yea and i was alternating between the chasing scene and this scene so i kept wanting to read wads on the blog but end up running around until the igloo part where the chasing scene went totally off. and i saw pictures but cant make out wad they were on the blogs. and when i was aboutto read........... yea correct. POOF.

i woke up. lol

blog bloggy blogged blogging.

HA. made it through!! but all the details have yet to be ironed out and things aren't looking good. bah might as well. i'll probably crack up lookin at so many people. but still ... wheeeee!!

ahaha. i think stef is my favourite person at the moment. shes like some fairy who occassionally flies down to me and gives me lots and lots of magic. ginger u rock la!

so am i goin to juggle desire and commitment together... or am i goin to give up one for the other. but of course i have to go for commitment aint it? ill probably give up commitment altogether if i try doing both. cheerios


yea its dwindling by the day. but still thr's a tingling right there in the middle of it. can't help it.

i dunno wad to blog. i just dont want that previous entry dangling here. haha. my tag board's not workin now. i wonder why. and i had that very weird thought just now when i was bathing but its way too tedious to blog it down atm... bcos im way too shagged. my brain's nt workin. haha. happy first night. good luck tmr.

i thought u were supposed to get out of my life. it didn't feel good when u said you know something happened everything i start contacting you again. yea i know i run to you everytime i face problems. and you are always there for me. haha... i dun want that to happen anymore. but i noe i probably cant help it. good luck for the next two days. and thanks... you mousie ginger.

haha i love the song on my blog.. how can anybody come up with such a delicate tune and yet also get the perfect voice to bring it alive. =)

rot (rotted) at home the whole day. i thought ydae that today is goin to be one of those days where u truly think u deserve a rest after some really busy shit. but the moment i started feelin bored... i really got BORED. i think im startin to feel stupid wasting time away. and that there is no time to waste on gettin emo or anything for that matter, other than doing what u know u would regret not doing by the end of your term.

anyways... was halfway through the boredom and decided to get out. met jea to the stupid british club. YEA it is like WTH... the British Club? and also wondered how in the world she got access into it when shes almost a pauper as i am (other than her parents and stupid sis). yea... of course there was more to it. her stupid sis was really there. she was not supposed to be there or even in sg for that mtter.. but she somehow was there so... well... FOOD GALORE. hahahaha thr really is not much we have in common other than that and music.

O WAIT. everytime i start blogging like the blog is an event log of what happened everyday i stall. i dun see blogs as something like that lar... or at least i dunwan it to be.

ermm.... haha but thrs nothing to blog about now other than it. so im not going to blog... or am i?

im just a stupid asshole who cant make up his mind like a freakin pussy...

u noe Music just rocks like hell. and its very versatile... haha
Music soothes your freakin nerves.
Music shares with you your woes.
Music draws up images in your mind and gives you that perfect ingredient to make a perfect setting.
blablabla... thr is just so much to it.

like what they say...
a Picture speaks a thousand words.

BUT

Music draws a thousand pictures.

HAHA

so how many words is that??

i feel shit. and it dosen help wif everybody around me all feeling shit.

u know im growing to be accustomed to being a poor pauper. i have a desire to be rich and its gettin stronger and stronger. i wan to haf that ability to pay for anything and not look into my pocket and see hollowness... see the mental calculations and see the stop signs of spending money. im so dead...

im dropping deeper and deeper... im supposed to be swimming upwards trying to stay afloat but instead seems to be going in the down direction.
somebody save me... i want to be myself i want to sing like i used to do i want to feel like i used to do i want to smile like i used to do i want to love i used to do. i want to. but i cant...

Im blogging on a bus!! haha how many times can u say ur blogging on a bus. yea im on my way home from bukit batok bcos i innocently thought i would endure the 4hour wait till proj time... but i failed. miserably.

hahaha... this bus is shaking vigorously. went to visit my old pal Jack Sparrow again ydae. hahaha... he is still damn cute. finally met stef after sooo sooo long. EH ur gettin cuter and cuter... but still no improvement in you noe where... but still as attractive as ever. DARN. and the mysterious guestss... woooo hahahaha. and the stupid show i-forgot-what-name. it really is damn sleepy... oh wait i mean its boring. I AM the one sleepy. yea so its so freakin boring and lame and nonsensical i fell asleep afew times durin the show. but no doubt its stupidly farnie.

hahahaha
boring laugh.

:)
hollow smile.

我要做回自己
我要做我喜欢的事情
我要跟喜欢的人在一起

我不要想这么多
我要很理智
我不要被牵着走
我不要感情用事

我想找到
我想放轻松
我想回到从前
我想找回笑容



这样我才会 更喜欢自己

you are very pretty

yeps so ive got tis new blogskin which i find so so so familiar but have no idea where ive seen it. IT's Nice!! its jus familiar. HAHA. and ive got e new tagboard which looks so much more like a board than the last one and ive got that inspire section. HAHA which is goin to be filled with inspiring stuff to inspire you dear readers of this inspiring blog. SOOKKK.

hmm... so you've pulled urself together or am i being the distracting piece of roadside stone still. i dunno you should know urself. Life's so beautiful with all these love and feelings im gettin suffocated by all these bullshit. Cmon... i did put in true feelings. its jus that they weren't exactly the kind of feelings u were lookin for and you knew it... just that u plain ignored that fact. and i was ASS enough to play along with you..
ahhh... how we wish it could get back to whr it was so joyous and sunny. =/

and stef is comin around hopping and jumping about how Love's Beautiful.

and again... Music's tremendously invigorating. i mean ofcos thr are many diff types of "feeling energised"

elyn is gettin on my nerves every now and then with her silly bf and his antics. and im not dealing very well with myself either.


Music's still part of my life. and music's all about emotions isnt it...
like how i wish i can get these out of my mind at least for the time being.

i don't want to i just want to be .






aahhh...

i want to learn music.
i want to walk along the beach.
i want to do what i like.
i want to find you.
i want to buy a car.
i want to walk around and feel inspired.
i want to smile and really do feel it.
i want to sit around and say Life's beautiful.

Love's Beautiful.

i woke up on the bus to the mesmerising sound of music. i always like the sensation felt to wake up to that one piece of music and remain tied to it for the next couple of hours or even days. Love for something - anything - is beautiful. ofcos people say we live for the people we love; what about the others. dont you have love for your passion? dont u love the idea of a breezy sun? do we only live for the people we love? apparently not.... for me.

But of course almost everything is made up of human beings.
Relationships, feelings, bonds, love...
to Countries, institutes, corporations, neighbourhoods, governments...
to Regulations, standards, commitments, concepts...
to religion, beliefs, behaviour...
to Sand, technology, door, food, bed...

when you think of the fact that every single interaction is the result of human revolution, when the fact that the earth is working in this manner because of humans, that you are no different from the others who are making incidents work and when you force yourself to embrace the fact that you are the one in control of everything thats going to happen.

then where did all the problems go?

我很想... 開心 地笑.

其實也不是甚麼容易的事.

有時候不是說不需要, 其實還是很需要, 只是... 累了.

當你認為值得你去熱愛, 去珍惜的東西一件一件地讓你失望的時候...
會想退一步, 會想讓腦子靜一靜...

但比竟是你曾經用很多光陰換回來的, 所以大概還會重新拾起來吧...

u know when fondness of somebody arrives so pure and real that it is beyond control. sometimes it is a blessing to be able to experience such ornate beauty.

then the reality kicks in. and even though its beyond control for u to choose, its adamant u distance urself away and seek shelter. however reprieve arrives and u require godlike interference.

yea sometimes blessing comes in such lavish appearances u do not even recognise. and your provider & companion in this blessed trail calls for your callous, you are not obliged; but stunned by your callowness.

My life is boring. there's only music. and you.

blogger's still not remembering me. bah.

she is DARN freakin chio.

u noe like blogger is supposed to "remember" me but it isnt. ha.

yea nette showed me tons of youtube vids just now. there was tis girl crying to her camera complaining abt e negative comments on her vids on youtube and then theres tis stupid chinese porn short films that is damn damn farnie. like the bao is like darn huge then the girl used it to..... nmind. haha. watch it urself.

school starts and i dun feel good. BAH.
heck abt relationships. looks like everybody around me is in some kinda dilemma. and our dear nette is freakin snobbish. eh just thank ur luck for jake la... ha.

Just my Luck.
haha watched it for lindsay lohan bcos she's plain darn chio. but it turned out to be better than expected. the songs the humour the end. = ) catch it.


-We are all human beings-

im goin through extraterrestial crisis!! i think onli hong noes wad its all about.

and its really freaky... that our lives are gettin more n more mirror like. and we're both pretty much screwed up at e moment.

I want a freakin Job. I need that freakin Job. and school's startin. Im so dead with all the projects and stuff chucked aside. Die.

screwed up relations. Damn how u wish u can at least choose.

first, name 20 people you think of now before answering the questions below tag 5 person to do this,if he/she done it,there's no need to redo it again.

1elynn
2jean
3nette
4wai
5hong
6kelv
7JJ
8chiaJ
9Luki
10cheryl
11jerv
12wee
13meer
14izi
15stef
16peter
17daph
18alex
19kelv.Thong
20peiqi (i think ur supposed to put in the person who made u do tis. its onli FAIR)

When did you meet 14?
School la... DUR

What will you do if you never meet 1 before?
err... Kill myself.

What will you do if 20 and 9 dated?
HAHAHAHA. then we're gonna haf a crosscultural couple n she can haf bird's nest everyday

Did you ever like 19?
yea. especially his thongs.

Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
Nah. she's older and he dosen like that.

Describe 3.
Bitch. = )

Do you think 8 is attractive?
Ok la. u noe He's not my type. Ha.

Tell me something about 7.
he's making life diff for himself.

Do you know any of the 12's family member?
Seen.

What's 8 favourite thing?
ehhhh gwen?

What would you do if 11 confess that he/she likes you?
u noe... sometimes we hafta make a choice btwn money and principles.

What language does 15 always speak?
both. eng n chi.

Who is 9 going out with?
he's birds. Nah i think he's with his parents on cruise or something

How old is 16 now?
40 I THINK.

When is the last time you talk to 13?
last nite. when he made me smoke.

Who's 2 favourtie singer/band?
her sis.

Would you date 4?
lol. u try askin him.

Would you date 7?
HELL no. eh did i miss something out like u hafta put females in e first ten.

Is 15 single?
HAA. she wud kill me.

What's 10 last name?
Shit. am i cheating if i ask her for it. anyways her fans should noe... if she has any. =p

Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
yea u mean like borrower-debtor kinda relationship

What school does 3 goes to?
some working company school

Where does 6 live?
bedok

What's your favourite thing about 5?
lol our SIMILARITIES.

Have you seen 1 naked?
err... sortof.

5 people to do this lame thing..
Nah. Good stuff are meant to be kept.

the irony that the presence of everything is due to that of the other.

sometimes it ain't enough and there isn't a choice.

doob. ba doob. ba doob ba doob.

bored.

u noe holidays are boring when ur com's spoilt, u fall out with THE friend thats dearest to you (or at least the one who's in sg and have time), u spend all your money and cant figure how, world cup's on and ur scv's terminated a month before, u read books and get frustrated at the lack of places for it, and bla dang ba doob pong bla... yea so its boring.

and im mesmerised by music all over again. WAHA.

i freakin haf no life. eh im nt supposed to be in school on a saturday afternoon leh.

im goin to kill that farkin guy who cut my freakin hair. i always end up gettin haircuts screwed up don't i. i went in... told him my hair is too bulky. he said... OK. then i said i want the front because i want to cover my forehead. no problem. then he freakin ended up like this. u go n die la... and im goin to die with you.

and she's all so pretty... whaha

aiyah yah yah yah.... die ah die. im starting to think life is freakin short and there really isnt much time left for us to totally enjoy it. ive spent 18 years doing NOTHING. at least when u think about what u've done in these 18 minute-like years to put on ur tombstone... my mind's a blank ah
!!!


BLANK.