i dunno wad to blog. i just dont want that previous entry dangling here. haha. my tag board's not workin now. i wonder why. and i had that very weird thought just now when i was bathing but its way too tedious to blog it down atm... bcos im way too shagged. my brain's nt workin. haha. happy first night. good luck tmr.

i thought u were supposed to get out of my life. it didn't feel good when u said you know something happened everything i start contacting you again. yea i know i run to you everytime i face problems. and you are always there for me. haha... i dun want that to happen anymore. but i noe i probably cant help it. good luck for the next two days. and thanks... you mousie ginger.

haha i love the song on my blog.. how can anybody come up with such a delicate tune and yet also get the perfect voice to bring it alive. =)

rot (rotted) at home the whole day. i thought ydae that today is goin to be one of those days where u truly think u deserve a rest after some really busy shit. but the moment i started feelin bored... i really got BORED. i think im startin to feel stupid wasting time away. and that there is no time to waste on gettin emo or anything for that matter, other than doing what u know u would regret not doing by the end of your term.

anyways... was halfway through the boredom and decided to get out. met jea to the stupid british club. YEA it is like WTH... the British Club? and also wondered how in the world she got access into it when shes almost a pauper as i am (other than her parents and stupid sis). yea... of course there was more to it. her stupid sis was really there. she was not supposed to be there or even in sg for that mtter.. but she somehow was there so... well... FOOD GALORE. hahahaha thr really is not much we have in common other than that and music.

O WAIT. everytime i start blogging like the blog is an event log of what happened everyday i stall. i dun see blogs as something like that lar... or at least i dunwan it to be.

ermm.... haha but thrs nothing to blog about now other than it. so im not going to blog... or am i?

im just a stupid asshole who cant make up his mind like a freakin pussy...

u noe Music just rocks like hell. and its very versatile... haha
Music soothes your freakin nerves.
Music shares with you your woes.
Music draws up images in your mind and gives you that perfect ingredient to make a perfect setting.
blablabla... thr is just so much to it.

like what they say...
a Picture speaks a thousand words.

BUT

Music draws a thousand pictures.

HAHA

so how many words is that??

i feel shit. and it dosen help wif everybody around me all feeling shit.

u know im growing to be accustomed to being a poor pauper. i have a desire to be rich and its gettin stronger and stronger. i wan to haf that ability to pay for anything and not look into my pocket and see hollowness... see the mental calculations and see the stop signs of spending money. im so dead...

im dropping deeper and deeper... im supposed to be swimming upwards trying to stay afloat but instead seems to be going in the down direction.
somebody save me... i want to be myself i want to sing like i used to do i want to feel like i used to do i want to smile like i used to do i want to love i used to do. i want to. but i cant...

Im blogging on a bus!! haha how many times can u say ur blogging on a bus. yea im on my way home from bukit batok bcos i innocently thought i would endure the 4hour wait till proj time... but i failed. miserably.

hahaha... this bus is shaking vigorously. went to visit my old pal Jack Sparrow again ydae. hahaha... he is still damn cute. finally met stef after sooo sooo long. EH ur gettin cuter and cuter... but still no improvement in you noe where... but still as attractive as ever. DARN. and the mysterious guestss... woooo hahahaha. and the stupid show i-forgot-what-name. it really is damn sleepy... oh wait i mean its boring. I AM the one sleepy. yea so its so freakin boring and lame and nonsensical i fell asleep afew times durin the show. but no doubt its stupidly farnie.

hahahaha
boring laugh.

:)
hollow smile.

我要做回自己
我要做我喜欢的事情
我要跟喜欢的人在一起

我不要想这么多
我要很理智
我不要被牵着走
我不要感情用事

我想找到
我想放轻松
我想回到从前
我想找回笑容



这样我才会 更喜欢自己

you are very pretty

yeps so ive got tis new blogskin which i find so so so familiar but have no idea where ive seen it. IT's Nice!! its jus familiar. HAHA. and ive got e new tagboard which looks so much more like a board than the last one and ive got that inspire section. HAHA which is goin to be filled with inspiring stuff to inspire you dear readers of this inspiring blog. SOOKKK.

hmm... so you've pulled urself together or am i being the distracting piece of roadside stone still. i dunno you should know urself. Life's so beautiful with all these love and feelings im gettin suffocated by all these bullshit. Cmon... i did put in true feelings. its jus that they weren't exactly the kind of feelings u were lookin for and you knew it... just that u plain ignored that fact. and i was ASS enough to play along with you..
ahhh... how we wish it could get back to whr it was so joyous and sunny. =/

and stef is comin around hopping and jumping about how Love's Beautiful.

and again... Music's tremendously invigorating. i mean ofcos thr are many diff types of "feeling energised"

elyn is gettin on my nerves every now and then with her silly bf and his antics. and im not dealing very well with myself either.


Music's still part of my life. and music's all about emotions isnt it...
like how i wish i can get these out of my mind at least for the time being.

i don't want to i just want to be .






aahhh...

i want to learn music.
i want to walk along the beach.
i want to do what i like.
i want to find you.
i want to buy a car.
i want to walk around and feel inspired.
i want to smile and really do feel it.
i want to sit around and say Life's beautiful.

Love's Beautiful.

i woke up on the bus to the mesmerising sound of music. i always like the sensation felt to wake up to that one piece of music and remain tied to it for the next couple of hours or even days. Love for something - anything - is beautiful. ofcos people say we live for the people we love; what about the others. dont you have love for your passion? dont u love the idea of a breezy sun? do we only live for the people we love? apparently not.... for me.

But of course almost everything is made up of human beings.
Relationships, feelings, bonds, love...
to Countries, institutes, corporations, neighbourhoods, governments...
to Regulations, standards, commitments, concepts...
to religion, beliefs, behaviour...
to Sand, technology, door, food, bed...

when you think of the fact that every single interaction is the result of human revolution, when the fact that the earth is working in this manner because of humans, that you are no different from the others who are making incidents work and when you force yourself to embrace the fact that you are the one in control of everything thats going to happen.

then where did all the problems go?

我很想... 開心 地笑.

其實也不是甚麼容易的事.

有時候不是說不需要, 其實還是很需要, 只是... 累了.

當你認為值得你去熱愛, 去珍惜的東西一件一件地讓你失望的時候...
會想退一步, 會想讓腦子靜一靜...

但比竟是你曾經用很多光陰換回來的, 所以大概還會重新拾起來吧...

u know when fondness of somebody arrives so pure and real that it is beyond control. sometimes it is a blessing to be able to experience such ornate beauty.

then the reality kicks in. and even though its beyond control for u to choose, its adamant u distance urself away and seek shelter. however reprieve arrives and u require godlike interference.

yea sometimes blessing comes in such lavish appearances u do not even recognise. and your provider & companion in this blessed trail calls for your callous, you are not obliged; but stunned by your callowness.