i think Time flies and in a certain not-so-tedious way maybe people do fly past too. and its pretty often that happens.

was talking to mummy the other night and she is super damn stupid. hahahahahahahahaha. see.


Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
Honestly, I just miss writing, the making music part.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
sometimes being on the road..and talking and talking..I just miss being creative.

Adangling carrotG says:
ohh... i didnt noe u were an organisation and makin so much money. whahahahahah

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
WHAT?

Adangling carrotG says:
walau... u nt singaporean ah.

Adangling carrotG says:
dun even noe our own company. can fight apple leh...

Adangling carrotG says:
LOL

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
I see you as a superbly talented musician, but your brain is really filled with rubbish.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
join my yoga lessons

Adangling carrotG says:
what shit u tokin bout... u really dunno ah

Adangling carrotG says:
eh u damn dumb leh... wah ... aiyah... dunno wad to say

Adangling carrotG says:
actually mine was damn lame also... whahahahah but the fact that u dunno also damn stupid. NO is SUPER STUPID.

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
huh?

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
aren't you talking about some children cartoon show?

Ohmmm... Mummy aka Tanya says:
if not how can a building fight an apple?

Adangling carrotG says:
blardy hell... kick you back to taiwan la... u give up the citizenship here la.

Adangling carrotG says:
CREATIVE.

Adangling carrotG says:
nmind. my blood all on the floor i must go mop already.

Adangling carrotG says:
bye

its actually not very farnie now that i read it again. but copy also copy already. Kan Kai dian bah.

Annoyed; abel


I really am annoyed. I can't put up the song :( grrrrrrrr....
Nothing much to update actually. Just pretty peeved. DUB! mummy's entry looks a little too much like mine. ;)

Speaking of Mummy, do you miss her? She was telling me how much she truly is a bona fide cavewoman. How she dosen't realise that one week has passed until people wished her having a great weekend online. And how she's been having the same routine of wake up and write and wake up. Life looks good on her side though, just a lil update on Mummy in case you were wondering.

We were discussing about meeting up with you during the thing coming up. And how i am going to deliberately arrange you and yl's occasional meetup. goot goot! She's so pretty and sizzling hot, you cannot resist her charm and go around breaking girls' hearts again. Poor poor agnes, This brat don't deserve you at all! I really should stop my nonsense.



Hmm... what else.

i've learnt that there are people who would want to be someone else. THAT IS JUST BLOODY FREAKY. GET A FREAKING LIFE.

then again, i'm freakin abel, how does that make me freakin different?

it doesn't.

but then i'm abel.

Watched Transamerica quite some time back. I remember posting something like this, but its gone now. Anyways Felicity Huffman was truly, madly amazing. How can a woman, be so convincingly transsexual?????????????

I watched it with intent. Her voice, her 'manly' facial expressions, and the way she tried to overcompensate her 'masculinity' with deliberate pats to her hair. It was like fresh linen in the over-used patent leather shop. Not sexy, not entirely inspiring, but oh so delightful.

please watch

Why do pple only cherish when its gone?
How does it help to realise something is important, but when its gone?
Will salvaging something help, when its gone?
Can it be the same when its been once lost?

Yea...
"cause you never think the last time is the last time, you think there is more."

i took you for granted. I took you for granted so much that i didnt realise you were slowly shifting away from me. I told you you should have taken me for granted too, then you wouldnt have felt this way. Now i realise i havent done anything you could even put in ur mind, let alone take for granted.

i know it takes pretty hell lot of courage. I need pretty much of that now too.

I'm sorry.

i know u have never thought this form of apology or any statement is worth even a peck of sincerity. What else do u want me to do. This is already the last resort ain't it?








like jl jus said, "Can u pls ask her to give u back your smile?"

bomp


shit i start with stupid words every entry now. anyways

you know nowadays i feel a lot more attached to myself. u know like i feel that i can touch the sky and then get my fingers scalded by the sun. and it feels good to be loved again. wa la la la la.

sorry la. i noe i broke the promise like one day after making it. but i didnt make it voluntarily anyway wad. so no liabilities. and you're not angry too. so everyone's happy. and im just extremely glad that u didnt take his ride. YES as puss as it may seem... im sayin im so freakin happy u didn't. yes im jealous. la la la la la.

and hahahahaahaha He went out with her for dinner and ended up blogging that he had a great day. wahahahahahaha.

i haf no idea why im blogging when i should be sleeping. yea since when i had any idea wad i was doin. so i should go n sleep. Yes im goin to slp NOW so stop nagging already. ASS. LOL. AG. SLT.

It's not easy loving me Yea i agree.
i am such a character
sometimes i dun get a grasp of myself either.
I feel vulnerable
and when i do i keep it to myself.
i feel ecstatic
and when i do i dun show it to the ones who matter too.
So Yes it's not easy loving me
and when u do i let it flow all the way right through.


It's not easy loving you either Yes it is.
you seem happy
i dun have anything to do.
you and your character
i feel i grasp but i dun relate to.
when u want something
never do you say out loud just how u feel.
So Yes it's not easy loving you either
and just as i did i would continue searching my way for you.

la la la

i noe i ahve no business blogging at this hour. its 240am and i have a class tmr at 9. but what shit... since when i gave a damn about such things. BUT come to think of it, i forgot what i wanted to blog about already. so BYE! i think its goin to look damn retarded if i really do publish this out. HECK. im pressing the orange lil button

the throat's killing me. i tried doping myself with strepsils and it worked at first (when i doubled the dosage stated on the box to about 30 sweets a day) but then it kinda lost its effect now. yikes!


so whats up with all the stalking in Singaporeans nowadays. darn. if it was to be a nuisance you succeeded. by leaps and bounds. ahh, whatever. brings us closer anyways. hahaha.


oh i finished the book i bought too. ya so... nothing's up. im goin to get myself a new book soon. its time to sleep. stop jabbing.

on my way home..



i winked at a cat

i smiled to myself

i felt happy i was sick

i danced around the cockroaches

i lighted a cigarette and let it burn

i winked at a cat again

i skipped the caffeine

i bought BIRD'S NEST drink

i lighted another cigarette and let it burn

i said Hi to paikias at the bustop

i smiled to a cat

i lighted my last cigarette and let it burn

i asked the 711 guy if i could buy the papers

i walked past kopitiam and said good morning

i saw my neighbour and offered him my drink

i didnt sweat a single bit despite the distance






all because i was thinking of you.
btw, i also farted the entire walk home.

my throat hurts like hell and the headache wont go away. i think its for all the times i told pple i havent had a headache before. now its payback time. bull.
the talentime pple didnt call either, probly out of it. ah... mite as well. dun think ill recover in time for next week anyway. i think its the Timmy! curse. the stupid band just curses its lead vocalists to lose their voices. Yall play urself lah! Play lah! we dun sing see wad yall can do. play lah! hahaha... DUmb.


noschool day is boring. but i think when ur sick everything's boring. the bus is boring. the tv is boring. the traffic light is boring. the building is boring. the lift is boring. the foodcourt is boring. the rooms are boring. the people look boring. crazy girl looked boring. moore looked boring. even aggy seemed boring. but she sure didnt sound boring. ha. ok brings me to this farnie incident.


this girl called Ag, she had a nice lil doggy. aiya cut the crap... so Ag has a dog.

then tht day she was at my place and had to bathe. but thats nt the point. so she was showering and i woke up and heard her bathing.




me : oie what time already u still bathing ah? dunnit go home meh?

ag: very late meh? i bathe very fast lah 30mins i come out.

me : Mad ah! bathe so long for what? just come out la go home then bathe again. i send u home later come back too late tmr dunnit go sch liao.

ag: orh. eh i stay here can or not? u said u got that female singlet for free rite?

me: yea have. can meh? u dunnit ask your parents ah?

ag: should be okay lah. i just say i at my friend's house do project lor.

me: orh. u come out ask first. if they say ok then i anything.


she continued to bathe... and bathe... and bathe and suddenly


ag: EH! THEN MY PUSSY HOW?!









haahahaahhahahaahhahahahahahahahaa. she called her dog pussy. ya only cats are called pussy. somehow she imagined her dog into a cat. i think leehom's right. she is stupid. hahahahhahaahahhahahahahaa. then my pussy how. silly silly.

AG


u know i liked it when u thrash scolded me for not calling back when i got home.

i liked it when ur face turned so ultimate black when she came up to my house too and brewed that medicine and completely ignoring ur existence.

i liked it when u were jealous of the western auntie who's ever so friendly and weird to me.

i liked it when u pout from your heart when im sick.

i liked it when there were 24 missed calls when i woke up and realised i missed school.

i liked so many of the little things u did in such little time.

you win man... heeheeheehee

AG

dubs.


stayin home for the past two days has been good. away from people, away from school. finally got the sense of belonging back. haa nmind... i think other than one or two, people should be thinking im some psycho. bought a book jus before i got sick, perfect timing.

haahaa Yes im happy like a bird. Chirp Chirp... damn retard. thanks thanks thanks. you know who u are. ok u are agnes. whats up with being mysterious bout that. i cant bring myself to say the other words though... haha THAT only you know what im referring to. you know... i'm starting to miss you already. maybe not going for sch today wasn't that brilliant a decision after all. you'd better sleep well. damn blardy well. haa.


dubs.

altogether now :) ;abel


My friend told me some girl thought I was arrogant and conceited and decided to tell the whole world about it too.

WAAA, get a life la.

I'm not your friend, you want a friendly face go look at posters or better yet talk to someone who can assist you, like a service staff (from any sector other than real estate) or a friend who would tell you, strangers simply do not just smile at each other for no apparent reason.

I make it a point to be polite. I smile when smiled at and keep my distance when my radar tells me this woman will bitch about me somewhere, sometime. It's not becoming of anyone to shout out a comment and disappear into the crowd. Come up to me and say it in my face.

You might just get a smile then. ;)






Now that you got yourself someone who loves you, cherish her like u used to. She might not know me, hell she may not have heard of me either! But she's somebody who matters a lot to me for the plain fact that you matter a lot to her and her to you. Call me paranoid or whatever you want, you are going to get sick of her in a few months' time. of course i hope for the better, but u know i'm always prepared for the worse.

Of course i'm not hurt, i know fully well the reasons behind. though i don't quite grasp the rest of the entry, i just need you to know how sensible you were to have made that decision. even my mum is telling me i was foolish! Maybe the two of you should sit down and have some tea to chat about "sensible" topics while i sit around fiddling with lego and barbie.

to update a bit of my life: i've been jetting here and there quite a bit recently. wasn't allowed to call u that day, mr.Tan is a very strict person indeed. i'm sure u missed him. heehee...


"Money might determine who gets what opportunities, but as the years go by, you measure your personal bank account by who loves you, how they love you, and whether the world is a better place because you were born."

-Warren Buffett


i'm getting soo hungry. you know mr.Buffett that without money i cannot really go fill my stomach with the countless BUFFETS available. Think about it Warren! ;p

omg omg omg...





i dun like to be misunderstood. not that i care how pple look at me... actually i do but nt the area im tokin bout now which really like only i noe wad the hell im tokin bout now. lol so anyways... i dun like those who matter to misunderstand me, i mean... i dunwan them to misunderstand my intentions.


abel ah abel... if ur thinking like how others do... then smack me pls. this is really important. u know its nt bcos ur second best... its not bcos u agreed or whatever... its not whatever shit pple can think of. what makes u think i will jeopardize our relationship with those shit. if thats not what ur thinking... wahahahha then good. at least it shows our understanding is there. hmm... u havent been blogging here lately too. blardy rich ass. wusp. i miss u like freak. and u freakin didnt call me when u were back that day. ASS.



yikes. i didnt noe pple looked at me that way. but it really dosent matter now... i mean ok lar... since im perceived to be like that already then u win lor. just good luck lah... i really dun want anything not very nice to happen anyway. So... tsk actually i dun even noe why the hell im explaining myself rite now... bcos like... ehhhh i still dunno wad to say. whahahahahaha. anyways... i hope pple start to think otherwise about me. at least one did. and thats really nice to know. thanks beautician. ;)








i really dun like what im doing now. i really shouldnt be smoking. i should be really driven. i should noe what i want. but at least im sensing my rebirth. wahahahah. rebirth. reborn. ;p i think a lot of e credit has to go to aggy. she did wad most couldnt do. and u noe... i cant call her ass. i cant bring myself to. bcos its wrong.









i can only call her ANUS. whahahahahaa.

yikes! she's the girl.

as dumb as it may seem... i dont want anybody else. too bad for me. now im easily contented. Foolish fool.

to miss something u never had. to miss somebody who never was.

and she's right there talking to me...




wow. ain't a good feeling. i can never let go.