missingyou; yz
I am getting daring nowadays ;p
It came crashing to realise the album had everything settled in like a jigsaw puzzle, when the tracks completed pieces that fitted into my picture. It probably is a coincidence, but then it could be subconscious.
Sometimes I wonder how lucky i am to be where i am now, to have the adulation of millions (hee..). And how the most lucky i am to have my parents as my parents, the people around me to be around me. Well, and for the boy to be my boy. I wonder how many of his friends benefit from his presence like i do, I'm lucky to be able to love him.
And now.. :
I NEED A BREAK!
goot gawd..
am I greedy..
Till then, my dearest
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Where art thou o Pegasus? ;abel
So I woke up this morning at 5 am.
The temperature's dropped many fareheits and it was freezing. Not a good start. I think about the many things I would rather be doing than travelling to the mountains.
Say,
A picnic at Central Park
A walk about the Bund
Going to that carnival on HK island
Making coffee
Talking to my sister
Painting a nude model or an apple whatever
Dancing to whatever's playing on the radio
See I am a downright lazy cosmopolitan ass. Imagine me in one of those olden times HK movies, it would be travesty. I need to get inspired. FAST.
It's just that, things can get pretty boring when you are doing the same things. You know there is SO MUCH MORE you can do, but how? One day I shall mount on my Pegasus and fly away.
So I woke up this morning at 5 am.
The temperature's dropped many fareheits and it was freezing. Not a good start. I think about the many things I would rather be doing than travelling to the mountains.
Say,
A picnic at Central Park
A walk about the Bund
Going to that carnival on HK island
Making coffee
Talking to my sister
Painting a nude model or an apple whatever
Dancing to whatever's playing on the radio
See I am a downright lazy cosmopolitan ass. Imagine me in one of those olden times HK movies, it would be travesty. I need to get inspired. FAST.
It's just that, things can get pretty boring when you are doing the same things. You know there is SO MUCH MORE you can do, but how? One day I shall mount on my Pegasus and fly away.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
quizzles. yea im sorry i forgot all about shutting this down. ha.
001. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
ehhhh... last week i suppose.
002. What did you dream about last night?
ah... i cant rmb la.
003. Who is the friend you can count on the most?
stef or leehom or eric or kelv
004. Where was your first kiss with your current love/interest?
lets not tok about it lol
006. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?
that im enlisting on the 7th of June.
007. Do you like anyone?
yepsy
008. Do you know anyone who is engaged?
erm... no. just married.
009. What's your favorite number?
23
010. Who was the last person to make you cry, and who was the last person to see you cry?
ahhh... stef. she made me cry and saw me cry and cried herself too.
011. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
yabedabedoo
012. How many people of the opposite sex have you kissed?
u know those pecks on the cheeks...
013. What is one thing you miss about your past?
ehhhh... i miss people. but im pretty happy now.
015. Are you jealous of anyone?
yea. actually not.
016. Is anyone jealous of you?
i dunno.
017. Has a friend ever used you?
yeps
018. Has anyone recently told you that they like you as more than as a friend?
nopes.
019. Who was the last person you drove with?
i dont drive. last person i was in a car with was... my dad.
020. What are you looking forward to?
11th may. my trip. when she comes back. enlistment.
021. How are you today?
good good.
022. What were you doing at 12:00 this afternoon?
takin a dump.
023. Are you currently single?
yeps
024. How many things in your past do you regret?
ahhh...
025. Do you have a best friend?
ehhh... yea. stef. more than one. u noe who u are lah.
026. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
u know my dad reads this. haha. but no.
027. Who was the last person you hugged?
stef. ya i noe her name appears all the time. she came back just, wad do u expect. lol.
028. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
yeps
029. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?
im onli twenty. i dont have a past.
030. Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
yeps. nah. haha.
031. Do you like your life?
im attracted to it.
032. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
metaphorically, yes. actually, no.
033. Did you forgive them?
no.
034. Who is your best friend?
oh... ok so i hafta list now. fuck. yea stef. leehom. eric. kelv. gang. fuck im sorry if i missed u out.
035. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
boys
036. How long have you had blogger?
dun no
037. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
probably not. to my knowledge. and i wun wan to noe either. ha
038. Have you ever slapped a girl/boy in the face?
nopes
039. If so why?
mad.
040. What is one of your biggest fears of your life?
dying last.
041. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeps
042. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
yeps
043. Are you a player?
nopes. im a singer! oks not farnie.
045. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
lol of course.
046. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you have dated?
ermmmmmmmmmm.... hahahahaha not that u will believe.
047. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker?
nopes
048. Are looks important?
yeps. face it. u wun date ms swan.
049. Does how many people a person has slept with affect the way you view them?
nopes. err maybe it depends.
050. Do you believe in love?
yeps yeps yeps. of course.
____________________________________________________
1. Who was the last person who made you smile last night?
stef
2. What were you doing at 8 this morning?
sleepin
3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
this fuckin quiz
4. What is something that happened to you in 1995?
primary 2
5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
HAHAHA
6. How many different things did you drink today?
6 i guess.
7. What colour is your toothbrush?
blue
8. What was the last thing you bought?
dinner
9. What was the last gift you recieved for your birthday?
yikes. hell who rmbs. books i think.
10. What colour is your front door?
brown.
11. Where do you keep your change?
pocket. table.
12. What is the weather like today?
rain shine rain shine rain shine
13. What is the best ice-cream flavor?
i dun like ice creams
14. What is something you are excited about?
when she comes back
15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
wah... dunno leh
16. What size shoe do you wear?
12
17. Do you have a sister?
nopes
18. Are you very random?
hahaha... sometimes
19. Do you want to cut your hair?
yeps, and a hell lot of other people too
20. Are you over the age of 25?
nopes
21. Do you talk alot?
yeps. sometimes. most of the time. haha.
22. Do you watch The OC?
hehe
23. Does your screen name have an 'x' in it?
yeps
24. Do you know anyone called Steve?
nopes.
25. Do you make up your own words?
yeps... hahaha cant think of one now
26. Are you ticklish?
sometimes
27. Are you typically a jealous person?
nopes
28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'B'
bangla. ben. la la lal al a.
29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'L'.
leehom
30. Who's the 4th person on your missed calls list?
gen
31. What did the last text message you recieved say?
Haha... You also now then remember... Then how... When...
32. Who to torture?
End the fuck thing. if i knew its a torture i wouldnt start.
001. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
ehhhh... last week i suppose.
002. What did you dream about last night?
ah... i cant rmb la.
003. Who is the friend you can count on the most?
stef or leehom or eric or kelv
004. Where was your first kiss with your current love/interest?
lets not tok about it lol
006. What is something you've learned about yourself recently?
that im enlisting on the 7th of June.
007. Do you like anyone?
yepsy
008. Do you know anyone who is engaged?
erm... no. just married.
009. What's your favorite number?
23
010. Who was the last person to make you cry, and who was the last person to see you cry?
ahhh... stef. she made me cry and saw me cry and cried herself too.
011. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
yabedabedoo
012. How many people of the opposite sex have you kissed?
u know those pecks on the cheeks...
013. What is one thing you miss about your past?
ehhhh... i miss people. but im pretty happy now.
015. Are you jealous of anyone?
yea. actually not.
016. Is anyone jealous of you?
i dunno.
017. Has a friend ever used you?
yeps
018. Has anyone recently told you that they like you as more than as a friend?
nopes.
019. Who was the last person you drove with?
i dont drive. last person i was in a car with was... my dad.
020. What are you looking forward to?
11th may. my trip. when she comes back. enlistment.
021. How are you today?
good good.
022. What were you doing at 12:00 this afternoon?
takin a dump.
023. Are you currently single?
yeps
024. How many things in your past do you regret?
ahhh...
025. Do you have a best friend?
ehhh... yea. stef. more than one. u noe who u are lah.
026. Have you ever kissed two people in one night?
u know my dad reads this. haha. but no.
027. Who was the last person you hugged?
stef. ya i noe her name appears all the time. she came back just, wad do u expect. lol.
028. Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them?
yeps
029. If you could change anything about your past, what would you change?
im onli twenty. i dont have a past.
030. Have you ever felt like killing somebody?
yeps. nah. haha.
031. Do you like your life?
im attracted to it.
032. Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
metaphorically, yes. actually, no.
033. Did you forgive them?
no.
034. Who is your best friend?
oh... ok so i hafta list now. fuck. yea stef. leehom. eric. kelv. gang. fuck im sorry if i missed u out.
035. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
boys
036. How long have you had blogger?
dun no
037. Has anyone ever cheated on you?
probably not. to my knowledge. and i wun wan to noe either. ha
038. Have you ever slapped a girl/boy in the face?
nopes
039. If so why?
mad.
040. What is one of your biggest fears of your life?
dying last.
041. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yeps
042. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
yeps
043. Are you a player?
nopes. im a singer! oks not farnie.
045. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right?
lol of course.
046. What's the largest age difference between yourself and someone you have dated?
ermmmmmmmmmm.... hahahahaha not that u will believe.
047. Have you ever dated/fooled around with a co-worker?
nopes
048. Are looks important?
yeps. face it. u wun date ms swan.
049. Does how many people a person has slept with affect the way you view them?
nopes. err maybe it depends.
050. Do you believe in love?
yeps yeps yeps. of course.
____________________________________________________
1. Who was the last person who made you smile last night?
stef
2. What were you doing at 8 this morning?
sleepin
3. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
this fuckin quiz
4. What is something that happened to you in 1995?
primary 2
5. What is the last thing you said aloud?
HAHAHA
6. How many different things did you drink today?
6 i guess.
7. What colour is your toothbrush?
blue
8. What was the last thing you bought?
dinner
9. What was the last gift you recieved for your birthday?
yikes. hell who rmbs. books i think.
10. What colour is your front door?
brown.
11. Where do you keep your change?
pocket. table.
12. What is the weather like today?
rain shine rain shine rain shine
13. What is the best ice-cream flavor?
i dun like ice creams
14. What is something you are excited about?
when she comes back
15. When was the last rainbow you saw?
wah... dunno leh
16. What size shoe do you wear?
12
17. Do you have a sister?
nopes
18. Are you very random?
hahaha... sometimes
19. Do you want to cut your hair?
yeps, and a hell lot of other people too
20. Are you over the age of 25?
nopes
21. Do you talk alot?
yeps. sometimes. most of the time. haha.
22. Do you watch The OC?
hehe
23. Does your screen name have an 'x' in it?
yeps
24. Do you know anyone called Steve?
nopes.
25. Do you make up your own words?
yeps... hahaha cant think of one now
26. Are you ticklish?
sometimes
27. Are you typically a jealous person?
nopes
28. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'B'
bangla. ben. la la lal al a.
29. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter 'L'.
leehom
30. Who's the 4th person on your missed calls list?
gen
31. What did the last text message you recieved say?
Haha... You also now then remember... Then how... When...
32. Who to torture?
End the fuck thing. if i knew its a torture i wouldnt start.
Friday, April 13, 2007
concluse;abel
It looks like this would pretty much be my last entry on this blog.
It looks like this would pretty much be my last entry on this blog.
I am very glad things did not work out the way we wanted it to back then.
Don't postulate.
The boy is shutting down my only outlet to vent!
He is so evil.
Last but not least,
The boy is crazy!
He is cutting my hair!
I love the boy ;p
Isn't she pretty? =D
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
it is probably like seeking pastures new. i mean pple grow and of course change along the way. so certain objectives start to waver... this is part and parcel of life rite. its probably time to change things a little bit. perhaps it all shouldnt have started in the first place... it came out intending to maybe share a bit, voice out a bit, communicate a bit, well even showoff a tiny bit. then it started to end up in dire consequences. there were fishing of information, checking up on you, even demanding explanations of what you write, well and of course the unthinkable questioning of your credibility. so perhaps its time to put everything to an end. to seek pastures new... albeit hidden.
im starting to understand why some refuse to take part in these cyber activities. some see it right away, some like me have to get burnt before realising it. and it gets all the more tougher when ur dealing with privacy of the known.
thats human nature for you. and u cannot do anything about them. so change yourself... not to suit them but to cope with them.
im starting to understand why some refuse to take part in these cyber activities. some see it right away, some like me have to get burnt before realising it. and it gets all the more tougher when ur dealing with privacy of the known.
thats human nature for you. and u cannot do anything about them. so change yourself... not to suit them but to cope with them.
Sunday, April 08, 2007
ok... im abit shag now... plus abit of medication drowsiness... and im doin this for maybe the first time...
haha... i just want to tell her i love her a lot... and i mean freakin a lot. i havent been a very vocal person... u know when it comes to expressing my feelings, so im feeling pretty overwhelmed to be doin this. but ANYWAY,
i just want u to know that even though i always say ur very disgusting to write all the mushy mushy stuff on the blog and also the never-will-improve classifications on what to be done only with your boyfriend and not your best friend... i still cherish the fact that you have been and are still here after all these years. yea we have had our ups and downs... but still quite ok lah hor..
i know i am extremely LUCKY FORTUNATE to have u as a friend and i should be GRATEFUL THANKFUL all the time... yes i know ur surprised to noe that. i just somehow think this thing is not goin to turn out like how testimonialodetribute-like as i hope it turns out to be... so pardon me lah i am still learning...
walau... i typed and retyped and retyped i love you abel! over and over again. HA but i still don feel comfortable with that. not that its not ur real name... u don write write my name either so its fair yea...
and i am still very very peeved that u and cq paka to ignore me when it was my turn today... pls hor he was staring ALL THE TIME when i was still queing up. but yea... i noticed the extra symbol on the album... it was err ... yea .. sweet of you... hor...
going off soon... but yea im still happy youre back. at least for now. time to grow up... behave like people of ur age... yeps...
thats about it. stay pretty and cute... and don forget your smile! (yea i noe it will always be there) =)
haha... i just want to tell her i love her a lot... and i mean freakin a lot. i havent been a very vocal person... u know when it comes to expressing my feelings, so im feeling pretty overwhelmed to be doin this. but ANYWAY,
i just want u to know that even though i always say ur very disgusting to write all the mushy mushy stuff on the blog and also the never-will-improve classifications on what to be done only with your boyfriend and not your best friend... i still cherish the fact that you have been and are still here after all these years. yea we have had our ups and downs... but still quite ok lah hor..
i know i am extremely LUCKY FORTUNATE to have u as a friend and i should be GRATEFUL THANKFUL all the time... yes i know ur surprised to noe that. i just somehow think this thing is not goin to turn out like how testimonialodetribute-like as i hope it turns out to be... so pardon me lah i am still learning...
walau... i typed and retyped and retyped i love you abel! over and over again. HA but i still don feel comfortable with that. not that its not ur real name... u don write write my name either so its fair yea...
and i am still very very peeved that u and cq paka to ignore me when it was my turn today... pls hor he was staring ALL THE TIME when i was still queing up. but yea... i noticed the extra symbol on the album... it was err ... yea .. sweet of you... hor...
going off soon... but yea im still happy youre back. at least for now. time to grow up... behave like people of ur age... yeps...
thats about it. stay pretty and cute... and don forget your smile! (yea i noe it will always be there) =)
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Love; abel
There isn't very much to be said about love. Just that it encompasses facets of me that were mysterious in so many ways. The reach of its glorious palm is nothing but for my individual's persistence.
Love has taken its toll on me, no doubt. But who says there's no more to it? My subscription has long been recorded and accounted for, there is no way i am getting out of it. I have known many friends through love. Some are still here, some not so visible. Regardless of which (facet), L is still glorious. Yeps while there are the occasional sleazy ones, there are also sacrificial balances.
I tend to seek a repeat of what i have already gone through. When i have something, i would want to make sure it is still there even if i wake up on the wrong side of bed next morning. So sometimes what's been missing from the equation is Time itself. I love my family. I absolutely love the person here who has kept me sane all these years. I love my mentors. I love everybody else that is appearing in my mind at this very moment. It takes time, sometimes a very long time.
So for now, let me treasure the people i have with me. When i've had enough of that, you might just get a look in your way then. ;)
p.s. in which no way this paragraph is depicting even the miniest of arrogance. smiles.
There isn't very much to be said about love. Just that it encompasses facets of me that were mysterious in so many ways. The reach of its glorious palm is nothing but for my individual's persistence.
Love has taken its toll on me, no doubt. But who says there's no more to it? My subscription has long been recorded and accounted for, there is no way i am getting out of it. I have known many friends through love. Some are still here, some not so visible. Regardless of which (facet), L is still glorious. Yeps while there are the occasional sleazy ones, there are also sacrificial balances.
I tend to seek a repeat of what i have already gone through. When i have something, i would want to make sure it is still there even if i wake up on the wrong side of bed next morning. So sometimes what's been missing from the equation is Time itself. I love my family. I absolutely love the person here who has kept me sane all these years. I love my mentors. I love everybody else that is appearing in my mind at this very moment. It takes time, sometimes a very long time.
So for now, let me treasure the people i have with me. When i've had enough of that, you might just get a look in your way then. ;)
p.s. in which no way this paragraph is depicting even the miniest of arrogance. smiles.
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