sucks. Absolutely.
it ain't fucking funny to have everything in ur life messed up and u have to take the freakin last train home but it stops one staion before yours u end up walking home in total darkness and like a hundred taxidrivers waving at u frm the road.
like what bloody fuck else can happen? u are already expecting the unexpected and something occurs you dunno how to react. then so many chores to do u havent started even to think abt doing it. so life's fucked up and ur fucked up. but u look at others and u start feelin better abt ur life. then u sit down and when everything sinks back in u start gettin tormented all over again. wtf. stop these double blows.
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
i had already decided to shut this blog down. but i looked back at the entries and the previous months and i didnt want to anymore. hahaha. just hope they dun mess up and erase everything.
and i want to blog in chinese but is too troublesome and cnnt be bothered to do it.
and its pretty ironic how ur presense is still FELT after ur gone. and trust me it'll be here for quite some time. and to you!! it has nothing to do with you! or whoever... it was a something we tried to do since before i entered poly. and it took us two years. anyway... the thing is that it has nothing to do with anybody else other than the two of us. although i kinda regret telling yall the stuff bcos its quite redundant and irrelevant and not useful. anyway... just forget the thing and dun think too much. CRAZY. haaha.
and to her: stay happy and find him. :)
and i want to blog in chinese but is too troublesome and cnnt be bothered to do it.
and its pretty ironic how ur presense is still FELT after ur gone. and trust me it'll be here for quite some time. and to you!! it has nothing to do with you! or whoever... it was a something we tried to do since before i entered poly. and it took us two years. anyway... the thing is that it has nothing to do with anybody else other than the two of us. although i kinda regret telling yall the stuff bcos its quite redundant and irrelevant and not useful. anyway... just forget the thing and dun think too much. CRAZY. haaha.
and to her: stay happy and find him. :)
Monday, January 16, 2006
i regret knowing you. i'm sorry but i really do.
you shouldn't have come into my life.
i sang it many many times. its as if u saw this coming and chose this song back then.
my eyes are red. this is the second time bcos of you.
i know what you want. i know your intentions.
i know what to do. i really do!
keep me in your heart. bcos u are and will always be.
i cherished. and smile. bcos i noe u did too.
take care of yourself. just like how i will of me.
maybe one day our paths will cross again.
let me tell you if that happens you are not going to leave anymore.
for now, 你要照顧自己.
please... im begging you. stay happy.
bye
you shouldn't have come into my life.
i sang it many many times. its as if u saw this coming and chose this song back then.
my eyes are red. this is the second time bcos of you.
i know what you want. i know your intentions.
i know what to do. i really do!
keep me in your heart. bcos u are and will always be.
i cherished. and smile. bcos i noe u did too.
take care of yourself. just like how i will of me.
maybe one day our paths will cross again.
let me tell you if that happens you are not going to leave anymore.
for now, 你要照顧自己.
please... im begging you. stay happy.
bye
Sunday, January 15, 2006
15 January 2006 110am
I'm popping by to say thanks for the email and the 6 missed calls. I really do appreciate it. And i immensely wish you enjoyed it just now because the moment was there for us to rethink about what we're going to do about us in the future. And i wish u luck for the rest of your life. I will be there for you if at any point of time u need my help. Frankly you know and i know, we should steer clear of each other at least for the time being.
This post may bring you unwanted trouble, i just want u to notice this additional entry i've made to you. By all means remove it after u see this. You have walked with me the most important 3 years of my life and i'm very sure would be with me for many more crutial "3" years. This performance was one of the most enjoyable i've made and you are one of the major reasons. I have so much more to say to you. There is this mysterious emotion i have everytime i log into this blog writing page that i want to find out why. This is one of the outlet i can make use of to write something truthfully and honestly, which i have not been ever since who knows when. I need to go unfortunately, and you know why.
Take care, Always. Gratitude and love is what i have for you. Thank you.
430am
Did u listen carefully to The Moment just now?
i like that song very much.
Ded for you.
It was, is and will always be.
這一刻 回頭看見自己
這一路的風景 百感交集的我
下一刻 又將飛向哪裡
漸漸疲憊的羽翼 為你披上了勇氣
放心離開我 我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著 不可思議的夢
雨後的天空 會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著 我們總會找到自由
這一刻 時間變成行李
越過生命悲喜 陪伴著我前進
因為你讓我看清自己
面對未知的恐懼 腳步更加堅定
只是遠行 不是逃避
告別是為延續回憶永恆的華麗
你要照顧自己 不要忘記
那些燦爛過的痕跡
自由
這是我們一直在追求 一直在奢望的
真的 ﹐ 我相信我們能做到 。
你對我很重要 比我自己還重要
所以我們只能走上這條路
眼淚啊 已經落得貓貓狗夠了 哈哈
分開吧
我真的很謝謝你 我很多時候都想起你
和你度過不開心 開心的每一分每一秒
要你離開我 很不好受
可是為了你 為了我們 沒有選擇了
至少我們擁有過 這一刻
435am
i don't know, somehow the words won't show up in the blog.
Do read it if you can.
Take good care of yourself, go to bed early. Stop biting your nails and eat well.
Stay healthy and happy..
I'm dying to see you. I want to hug u tightly and tell you how much u mean to me, esp after all those i've said. But the heart is going to be left cold, you are going to leave me. i did not cherish you while i could have, did you?
440am
i forgot to bid farewell.
GoodBye, my dearest.
I'm popping by to say thanks for the email and the 6 missed calls. I really do appreciate it. And i immensely wish you enjoyed it just now because the moment was there for us to rethink about what we're going to do about us in the future. And i wish u luck for the rest of your life. I will be there for you if at any point of time u need my help. Frankly you know and i know, we should steer clear of each other at least for the time being.
This post may bring you unwanted trouble, i just want u to notice this additional entry i've made to you. By all means remove it after u see this. You have walked with me the most important 3 years of my life and i'm very sure would be with me for many more crutial "3" years. This performance was one of the most enjoyable i've made and you are one of the major reasons. I have so much more to say to you. There is this mysterious emotion i have everytime i log into this blog writing page that i want to find out why. This is one of the outlet i can make use of to write something truthfully and honestly, which i have not been ever since who knows when. I need to go unfortunately, and you know why.
Take care, Always. Gratitude and love is what i have for you. Thank you.
430am
Did u listen carefully to The Moment just now?
i like that song very much.
Ded for you.
It was, is and will always be.
這一刻 回頭看見自己
這一路的風景 百感交集的我
下一刻 又將飛向哪裡
漸漸疲憊的羽翼 為你披上了勇氣
放心離開我 我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著 不可思議的夢
雨後的天空 會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著 我們總會找到自由
這一刻 時間變成行李
越過生命悲喜 陪伴著我前進
因為你讓我看清自己
面對未知的恐懼 腳步更加堅定
只是遠行 不是逃避
告別是為延續回憶永恆的華麗
你要照顧自己 不要忘記
那些燦爛過的痕跡
自由
這是我們一直在追求 一直在奢望的
真的 ﹐ 我相信我們能做到 。
你對我很重要 比我自己還重要
所以我們只能走上這條路
眼淚啊 已經落得貓貓狗夠了 哈哈
分開吧
我真的很謝謝你 我很多時候都想起你
和你度過不開心 開心的每一分每一秒
要你離開我 很不好受
可是為了你 為了我們 沒有選擇了
至少我們擁有過 這一刻
435am
i don't know, somehow the words won't show up in the blog.
Do read it if you can.
Take good care of yourself, go to bed early. Stop biting your nails and eat well.
Stay healthy and happy..
I'm dying to see you. I want to hug u tightly and tell you how much u mean to me, esp after all those i've said. But the heart is going to be left cold, you are going to leave me. i did not cherish you while i could have, did you?
440am
i forgot to bid farewell.
GoodBye, my dearest.
Monday, January 09, 2006
today is meet-the-weirdos day.
nono. first thing was me arriving late for MR. class started at 9 but i was there only at 1010. thats not too late... at least i made it for the going thru of answers. just that i didnt have any. But it was because of the fucked up buses la!! i sat at the bustop for one full hour watchn one after another sardinepacked bus strolling past the helpless and hapless me. how am i supposed to take the bus to school if they dun stop in the first place?!
yea... i should have known and gone earlier bcos ive had tis problem for 1 1/2 years already. sorry. - -"
ANYWAY. ok.
First i saw Waileong's ex-workingpartner. Blardy hell! why was he in SP? didnt he put in his resume that his greatest achievement in LIFE so far is the diploma after army. HuH?! Hobbies are chilling and dancing. WHO the hell puts these in his resume?? him.
then i saw PARI!! haahahahaha! total stunned. he's still the same just that he looks more decent with his beige shirt and beige pants and beige bag. haaha. FUNNY SCENE. we used to memorise his full name but i forgot already. Yeps... what was he doing in SP too?
ok. i saw the star idol guy next. that Ahbeng. haaha. he reallie looks ahbeng even in real life. the way he walks the way he dressed. HAHAHAHA. but he's Star Idol. so i cant laugh at him. but he's reallie a very fun person. at least on tv. i didnt noe he studies in SP too.
i'm beginning to like SP more and more. (=
nono. first thing was me arriving late for MR. class started at 9 but i was there only at 1010. thats not too late... at least i made it for the going thru of answers. just that i didnt have any. But it was because of the fucked up buses la!! i sat at the bustop for one full hour watchn one after another sardinepacked bus strolling past the helpless and hapless me. how am i supposed to take the bus to school if they dun stop in the first place?!
yea... i should have known and gone earlier bcos ive had tis problem for 1 1/2 years already. sorry. - -"
ANYWAY. ok.
First i saw Waileong's ex-workingpartner. Blardy hell! why was he in SP? didnt he put in his resume that his greatest achievement in LIFE so far is the diploma after army. HuH?! Hobbies are chilling and dancing. WHO the hell puts these in his resume?? him.
then i saw PARI!! haahahahaha! total stunned. he's still the same just that he looks more decent with his beige shirt and beige pants and beige bag. haaha. FUNNY SCENE. we used to memorise his full name but i forgot already. Yeps... what was he doing in SP too?
ok. i saw the star idol guy next. that Ahbeng. haaha. he reallie looks ahbeng even in real life. the way he walks the way he dressed. HAHAHAHA. but he's Star Idol. so i cant laugh at him. but he's reallie a very fun person. at least on tv. i didnt noe he studies in SP too.
i'm beginning to like SP more and more. (=
Sunday, January 08, 2006
I want to get my BIKE LICENSE!!!
bcos its much more affordable i mean the bike and i like the coloured helmets.
but DaD says NO. so i should go get oneo n my own without telling him. or should i try persuading him.
and next... im going to play music professionally. i noe it has nothing to do with what im studying now. but that is the final destination man. dream is Professional Music. POP.
be it the artiste, hte management, the composer, the lyricist, the producer, the arranger, the band. whatever... ill do it.
and ely's voice is driving me nuts. I HAD A SORE THROAT n BLOCKED NOSE that day... or else i would have whacked your ASS!! ok. thats.... tsk. beautiful voices.
bcos its much more affordable i mean the bike and i like the coloured helmets.
but DaD says NO. so i should go get oneo n my own without telling him. or should i try persuading him.
and next... im going to play music professionally. i noe it has nothing to do with what im studying now. but that is the final destination man. dream is Professional Music. POP.
be it the artiste, hte management, the composer, the lyricist, the producer, the arranger, the band. whatever... ill do it.
and ely's voice is driving me nuts. I HAD A SORE THROAT n BLOCKED NOSE that day... or else i would have whacked your ASS!! ok. thats.... tsk. beautiful voices.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
What's so bad about LeeHom? ok maybe the proposed new genre he's trying out dosent suit most tastes but still ain't that bad right?! what do u mean egoistic and far-fetched.
ok. forget it. it is your opinion.
another stupid random post. i wanted to write about how everything is changing again. no mood...
ok. forget it. it is your opinion.
another stupid random post. i wanted to write about how everything is changing again. no mood...
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
im awake and i cant sleep!!!! and Wee cant sleep as well. but he's probably dozing off already bcos i didnt reply to his msg and u noe how easily u can fall asleep while waiting for msgs.
ANYWAY. the thing is i cant sleep! but the main reason im nt trying... i dunno when's FM retest. wad time isit?! Sab says 515 n gives mi a classrm. but its the original classroom eh... cannot be right. and what the blardy use isit for there to be a online BlackBoard when thr's nothing on it?! all kinds of stupid shit up thr but no retest details. and its supposed to occur on the first day of sch?! what? what? ...
and i haven't studied.
and i swear today is up thr on the top ten suai-est days of my life. first i couldnt find the bal sheet... n msged pple in the middle of my sleep. then i got a call to say its been found when everybody have already replied NO. ok... fine.
so i cont to msg kelv for marina. ohh... but slept until 4. oh shit. going to be late. haa. so i asked whether its still on. n he replied "now then i ask. u DUN TRY ANYTHING FARNIE LOR." wahahhahaa.... that was it. i HAVE TO go. so i went. bad choice.
it started raining. bo bian... ran thru the rain. ate grilled food, chilli chicken, pepper chicken, curry chicken, fried stuff whilst throat was already burning. haa. ok. thats my fault.
next the soup was drying up. so asked auntie to fill. she looked at us. looked at the pot. looked at her kettle. n said "Mei You liao..." n blardy walked away. ???? what?! lidat? ass sia...
ok. fine. so i went to get someone to fill it up. but the guy gave mi the kettle instead. so i carried the kettle back to my table. i looked like some bangla working thr la... not farnie lo.
next. decided to go pool. worst decision of the day. while walking i sprained my wrist, yes WRIST. what has it gotto do with walking?! and i broke a freakin lightbulb. bcos i was too lazy to get the stand, the cue went up n broke the blardy bulb. it costs $15 bucks leh... wad bulb is that. got win medal de har.
piang... went home after that. n still go home hafta suai. walk underpass can walk wrong direction. take bus can take bus filled with indians. sorry im currently a racist atm. one lift spoiled. what?! Day of the Suai-ed ah...
lalalala.
and i slept 6 hours for 3 daes. thats alot. really.
05 - 06 went clarkequay until 6. rched home 7. went to work at 8. work until 9. SUPPOSED to GO HOME after that. and one blardy auntie hijacked my bus. took mi hostage n gulped me with alcohol. i finally reached home only todae morning. making full use of time eh...
ANYWAY. the thing is i cant sleep! but the main reason im nt trying... i dunno when's FM retest. wad time isit?! Sab says 515 n gives mi a classrm. but its the original classroom eh... cannot be right. and what the blardy use isit for there to be a online BlackBoard when thr's nothing on it?! all kinds of stupid shit up thr but no retest details. and its supposed to occur on the first day of sch?! what? what? ...
and i haven't studied.
and i swear today is up thr on the top ten suai-est days of my life. first i couldnt find the bal sheet... n msged pple in the middle of my sleep. then i got a call to say its been found when everybody have already replied NO. ok... fine.
so i cont to msg kelv for marina. ohh... but slept until 4. oh shit. going to be late. haa. so i asked whether its still on. n he replied "now then i ask. u DUN TRY ANYTHING FARNIE LOR." wahahhahaa.... that was it. i HAVE TO go. so i went. bad choice.
it started raining. bo bian... ran thru the rain. ate grilled food, chilli chicken, pepper chicken, curry chicken, fried stuff whilst throat was already burning. haa. ok. thats my fault.
next the soup was drying up. so asked auntie to fill. she looked at us. looked at the pot. looked at her kettle. n said "Mei You liao..." n blardy walked away. ???? what?! lidat? ass sia...
ok. fine. so i went to get someone to fill it up. but the guy gave mi the kettle instead. so i carried the kettle back to my table. i looked like some bangla working thr la... not farnie lo.
next. decided to go pool. worst decision of the day. while walking i sprained my wrist, yes WRIST. what has it gotto do with walking?! and i broke a freakin lightbulb. bcos i was too lazy to get the stand, the cue went up n broke the blardy bulb. it costs $15 bucks leh... wad bulb is that. got win medal de har.
piang... went home after that. n still go home hafta suai. walk underpass can walk wrong direction. take bus can take bus filled with indians. sorry im currently a racist atm. one lift spoiled. what?! Day of the Suai-ed ah...
lalalala.
and i slept 6 hours for 3 daes. thats alot. really.
05 - 06 went clarkequay until 6. rched home 7. went to work at 8. work until 9. SUPPOSED to GO HOME after that. and one blardy auntie hijacked my bus. took mi hostage n gulped me with alcohol. i finally reached home only todae morning. making full use of time eh...
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