im shit. yea just got back results n i should have known better eh? probably took the wrong choice btwn jc n poly. im nt sayin poly is the wrong choice generally... it was wrong for ME. how can u put somebody as slack and zero self-discipline into POLYTECHNIC?? ur sending urself souththai. BUT i haf no idea how ecm n pscm came baq with both C+... i mean HOW?? i think its impossible. still... it dosen matter. it reflects the kinda effort put in anyway. n thr's no way i can argue that. n i dun dare to sign into msn. i dunwan pple to ask about results. i cant face it lah... shit. first time eh... yups.thr goes Uni and leehom can find himself another buddy to accompany him. im not goin into university. oh my... hai. thr goes my life. fuck you xuan.

im back. from chalet i mean. if u didn't noe. n it shud be called a camp. bcos we spent all the time in the room.

argh!! i had tons to blog about 30mins ago.. about the music industry.. about how i love music.. about the chalet.. about dreams.. about tons of things!! bud i lost all the impulse n .......

aiyah ill try blogging later.

HEY!!

hahahahahaha. im joyful im happy im ecstatic. no not bcos of chalet. omg... u realli do noe how to pick the right time to talk to me huh... how m i goin to sleep like that?! HEY! haha... dats darn cute.

Sun Yan zi's album is out today. go and buy right NOW!!
yeps i think its quite a good album. alot of new elements and innovation. typical sun-yan-zi album la.

ok lets tok about all these modern day fan fanaticism trends. i mean a line needs to be drawn somewhere man... u can idolise but u nid to realise the distance meant to be present and not childishly think that you somehow must get to know him/her personally and it holds such an enormous amt of piority within u. (yes im tokin bout you JJ, if u r "clever" enuf to realise...) come on... wad do u mean u cnnt leave her alone n be the all supportive fan just like all the others. this is what a "fan" is supposed to be and it should stay that way. can u just imagine how troubled somebody would be if he/she needs to entertain needs to basically "make frens" wif the thousands(the very least) who want to... ur crossing the line man.

yea i noe wad those whu know are goin to sae about me... i was how old back then?? 14? n i hoped... i did not force. n i was the very miraculous exception. if this exception gives u hope... then im sorry and u all the more have to give up that whatever pathetic glimmer of hope left.

idolise. don't extremely intrude.


haha. i cant stop. n for goodness sake im announcing ok!! i have nothing to do with whatever people i once had. so stop coming to me for favours and everything. just stop it. can u plain forget the fact that i once knew her. dun relate everything to it n stop reminding me i knEw her. i dun nid YOU to remind me.
(tis time its not targeted at u JJ, in case "clever" you take it personally... lol)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005, 11:39:49 PM

my dad took away my modem because the pc's been on fer three full daes n he's been blabbering nonstop fer that duration about the BILL BILL BILL. haha... yea so im typing this on notepad AGAIN. yea n tis time he hid it in some really secluded place. i cnnt find it... help!!

anyway...thr's this thing ive been thinking about.
if in this scenario where u and your partner have just gotten together. and u have this illness recurring after a long long time... and ur partner's BEST fren just died n the spouse is ur partner's Ex. yeps... ridiculously confusing.

and then afta the bestfren's death your loved ones come discussing with you that they think it is FATE that ur partner n the spouse are meant to be together.
and that her husband died n ur disease recurring out of the blue points to it... they hope that you leave ur partner bcos they are worried for YOU.

i dun noe. haha im crazy enuf to try solving this problem. i mean somehow u nid to keep urself occupied.there are like so many issues to be taken care of ...
your partneryour family...yourself...the spouse...

first if u love him/her... ur supposed to want him/her to be happy
But if you love him/her you would want to be with her

third you dunnoe whether him/her still likes that spouse
fourth you dun want your loved ones to be sad

fifth if you dun leave him/her, was the reason because you dun believe in such superstition or because you love him/her too much n he/she is of the same to you or is it because you love him/her and must be with him/her regardless of whether him/her heart is with you.

If you choose to leave... you are leaving for fear of the superstition coming true or are you leaving for your loved ones or are you leaving because you want him/her to be with him/her true love.

wahahahahaha i really need a job.

went nitecycling ydae. my hands are aching like nobody's business. im mad. im troubled. n dere is nothing i can do about it. yeah... all the advices i gave in the past are going to come haunt mi now. im warning u.. dun start.
ok so basically the thing to do now is to ride thru this while not losing yourself. ass.. easier said.


Blogger is under fark maintenaince. n i freakin wanna blog n then sleep... yeah so im typing in notepad. i think the mind is a complex thing, or at least mine is. it is unbelievable how all sorts of things can just come up in ur brain. imagination running wild is not NOT a good thing. things do tend to get kinda complicated as it goes on eh... n when stuff are linked to other certain stuff u hold n cling on like its life n death. it has nothing to do with you man... you mean you actually DO think u stand a chance?

FucK.... Face it.
i hate it when things turn out to be what i thought it would be. the negative results that is. it isnt that good an ability to predict these.