before i fall into slumber...

STELLA is VERY VERY CHIO!!

Siao Zar Bo was chio.... todae. ONLY todae.

Mindy is Chio!!!!!!!!

ok. done with my ranting. i can go to sleep.

stella is chio!!!!!!!!! wahhahahahahaa



i noe ive been echoing that a LOT these days... bud it is a fact. and tis pic does not 100% reflect that though.

n ive realised something else. JunJie's chang gong is absolutely fantastic. n he has surpassed a certain Chou by leaps n bounds... haha im not sayin music can be compared like this though. haaaah..... can i ever sing like them.. when m i goin to get proper music lessons... LALALALA

ok ive got two more papers... one's tmr 9am. n i haven touched the damned textbook. i can never change can i... i have no discipline....... hoo

n i went to get my fone repaired. yes... was forced to. bcos i couldnt turn it on. not turn it on.... u noe turn it on. i couldnt switch it on ...
n dey gav mi baq a spoilt one. shit motorola. i still cant charge properly for goodness sake!! does it even make sense to you that you giv one baq wif proper backlight n on-able.... but cnnt charge properly?? wads the use man....

VS is OFFICIALLY not goin co-ed.
yeps... wahahaha. looks like the petition did work. or at least i would wanna think it was bcos of it. yea the VS spirit did show itself... n i had that spirit. or did i? i think after everything... esp when they wanted volunteers to help teach the current students. im nt sure of myself anymore... maybe i responded to the petition so enthusiastically because of the hype n all the impulsive nerves running thru me at that point of time... i wasn't prepared to even help them out over the fone... much less go physically down. please.
so much has been said about seeing how victorians think-say-action thru this whole incident. bud i merely thought n said... no actions nothing. yeps. thats been me all along hasn't it... .

There was a farmer who sold a pound of butter to the baker. One day the
baker decided to weigh the butter to see if he was getting a pound and he
found that he was not. This angered him and he took the farmer to court.

The judge asked the farmer if he was using any measure. The farmer replied,
amour Honor, I am primitive. I don't have a proper measure, but I do have a
scale." The judge asked, "Then how do you weigh the butter?" The farmer
replied "Your Honor, long before the baker started buying butter from me, I
have been buying a pound loaf of bread from him. Every day when the baker
brings the bread, I put it on the scale and give him the same weight in
butter. If anyone is to be blamed, it is the baker."

We get back in life what we give to others.
Whenever you take an action, ask yourself this question: Am I giving fair
value for the wages or money I hope to make?

Honesty and dishonesty become a habit. Some people practice dishonesty and
can lie with a straight face. Others lie so much that they don't even know
what the truth is anymore. But who are they deceiving? Themselves--- more
than anyone else.

Honesty can be put across gently. Some people take pride in being brutally
honest. It seems they are getting a bigger kick out of the brutality than
the honesty. Choice of words and tact are important . . .

Whenever you criticise somebody, ask yourself whether you deserve to be making that comment. And always turn the finger back against yourself and ask the exact question or argument you made at somebody.

one down... 3 to go.

i think i didn't flunk todae's paper... or did i?
bud it was realli farnie todae... first the tchr in charge was tis guy whu behaves and sounds like an overgrown child. he actually went to personally check each of our pencil cases for hidden answers. wahahaha and he had his shirt tucked into his belt... NOT his pants.
then an indian guy came into the classroom while we were reading the paper claiming he's a private candidate. and he speaks with the strong indian accent. i think i was e onli one not-reading-but-looking. they were trying to communicate with ech other until the two tchrs looked at ech other n decided the indian shud report to the exams office. hahahaha.
then during the paper i kept staring into the ceiling staring into black spaces on the wall. n the overgrown incharge kept staring at mi. so i decided to stare at the wall behind him. i think he resisted lookin back until i went back to my paper. i caught him lookin back at the wall for a whole 5mins. hhahahaha!!!!
next it was crazy gerl's turn. u noe she was shaking her legs... no her whole body since the start of e paper... then tied her pants... did sumtin to her hair... all kinds of things lar. and near the end of e paper... she sumhow choked on her own saliva and started coughing n coughing non-stop. then she either noticed mi laughing or realised she was embarassing herself... she started LAUGHING n COUGHING together. freakin farnie...@#!$#@!!!! the tchr had to come over n pass her tissue and warn us to stop laughing. yea... e kid is askin us to stop laughing.

probably bcos he's goin to laugh with us if we dun stop soon...

lukito is back!! hahhaha... ive been having this urge to meet up wif all my not-in-poly frens these few daes... yea n this indon guy came baq just in time b4 the urge subside. b-u-d-g-e-t... hahahaha

my fav song is now Zhen Yi Zhi Yan Bi Yi Zhi Yan. 5mins ago it was Liu Sha. and i cant spell SCISSORS for goodness sake. i jus spelt it s-i-c-c-o-r-s. yea... time to borow my bro's textbook. o wait... i dun tink they still teach spelling of words in pri5.

i think i stink now. just nw on the train... i was surrounded by this 5 indians e whole journey. n i noe im nt racist... n i m not being racist. bud i seriously COULD'NT BREATHE la!!!! the were like palegebolegemuuneluvam all the way then this indian woman was stuffing her armpit right in my face... ok not right in my face bud it was in front of my face. the whole lil room i had was like so humid and NO AIR NO AIR!! omg...

anyway.
jus came baq from steamboating at marina. ok. i noe i've been going a bit too often than the average human. bud its good and cheap and there's a pool hall. yea... haha. bud thr were'nt any valleys. i wasted my trip!! haha... yea u noe im joking. there were tons of cheenas thr la!! i wonder wad is attracting these pple thr... it is TONS n i do mean TONS. i think its e van... they r too cheapo to take e bus. or maybe the $10... they r too cheapo to go for the $12 ones. or the fact that its a buffet... they r too cheapo to waste the $10 on other too-exp-food. or they mistook the place for ZhenFa further down the street... they r too cheapo to bother verifying the place bcos they see the food and want to join the queue ASAP.
wahahahaha... in other words they are too cheapo. o wait a min... then wad the hell m i doin thr? yesh... im cheapo. hha... bcos there are fakefins there. my fav jiao zi. empty seats. near pool hall. mama stall sellin cheaper drinks. cheaper price. free ride.
ohh oh... when we were leavin the place i went to buy drinks at e mamashop. n i was askin about e price of every drink they have in e fridge. yes cheapo. yea... so the uncle told mi all smaller bottled drinks are 1.50 . yeps... so i took minute maid bcos it looked bigger. hhaha... bud no it tastes like err expired chicken soup. so i switched to sportade. bcos it dosen onli look bigger than the rest... it IS bigger. 600ml vs 500ml. hhahahahhaa... so happily i tot i got myself a bargain.- -" bud e auntie said it was $2. lalalalala..... n guess wad i did. i went back to the fridge n switched to green tea. hai... embarassing cheapo. n pls guess why i chose greentea...





bcos the 1.5l versions of greentea is 50c more exp than the others.

was readin a fren's blog and we had the same sentiments. haha.. according to her it is a sign of growing maturity. HAHAHAHA.
yeps... i think everybody is getting upset over the slightest of things. conflicts involving n revolving me. stuff are looking completely trivial to me yet people are gettin so uptight over them. misunderstnadings n all the rubbish btwn pple... boils down to communication eh? it is all the lack of understanding and communication.

i realised that the basis of all relationships, aside from trust, is communication and understanding. many people observe, assume and then get upset. which is quite sad actually. and the worse part is, they dont confront and keep these things inside. thus leading to them having assumptions left unchecked, brewing discontentment and all that rubbish.

and i realised how people can be so different, when they are in the situation and when they are lookin at the situation. how we can come up with analogies being the outside party yet stumped when u face the exact scenarios. it realli is a wonderful world we have... don't we. n life is very much interesting. again... we shud never regret doin aniting, should we? ( :





ps. no i do admit sum upsets are well worth the frustrations. n i think i was pretty immature to have done the j/j online prank. bud no i didnt think about the incident when i was blogging tis post. so... yea... hee.

hello im xuan and i think my brother is very cute. even though he's cuter than me, i still think he's very cute. im a gay and i just confessed to sameer my feelings for him. i don't think he treated me seriously, but i was really serious about it. hopefully he'll accept me, even without me paying him five dollars a day. haha. and the sausage has gone into my stomach and im screaming at my brother now because he took the whole bowl of sausages into his room. and now, im comparing shupin's stomach with his. haha. and now, im singing to the music and reading comics, even though i should be studying for my SSM paper tomorrow. and now, im looking at this screen and reading the words on it. oh! i realized i looked like a monster. i know im the last person on earth to realize that, but its okay. at least i realized that eventually. i look better when my hair is wet and when im wearing a dark blue polo tee. it must have something to do with jasmine's and shupin's very very very tasty and sweet and yummy and delicious saliva! and im going to eat more sausages! bye! :)

ok hell week is goin to start in 4 hours time. im goin to mug like crazy im goin to do something for myself. or so i say im going to. bud e thing is i haf a final 30%exam on tuesday yet im still busy slacking arnd borrowing HArlemBeat from our dear Hong! ... yes i offered to distract his Distraction over to ME. so now im the one wif all the distractions. ok... ive been sayin these like donkey years ago... n im still over here doin donkey business. ive gotto find a way to wake up my bloody donkey mind... SOON.ASAP.RIGHT NOW.

went to grandma's house only just now. u noe im not as close with her as i would liked to... n my other cousins are far closer to her than i am. n im nt close to my cousins too. it is very weird i feel distant.. from cousins of both sides. and my maternal cousins.. they r all overseas in Unis. omg... the pressure is intense. i dun want to become the only one not to be a degree holder. n with the prospect of them all holding at least a doctorate... see what kinda mess im into now.

haha.. my uncle did this farnie thing just now. he was asking us whether it was hot... (which obviously was bcos we were perspiring like Donkeys n im still mad that they dun install at least a FAN in their house. like so blatantly ignored the stiff air they indulge in everyday. yes i used the word STIFF.)
ok back to the farnie thing. so he offered to turn on the movable/portable/mini pathetic little fan in the room. or so we thought. bcos all he did was to turn the fan towards our direction. like hhahahaha.... did he forget to turn it on or what?! he even coiled the wires n placed it nicely beside the fan. - -" when we left e room he turned the fan back to the original position. hmm-hmm-hmm. farnie eh... DA JIU.

saturday morning. wahahaha ok its 2pm bud i jus woke up so its MORNING to me. i think it just rained... cos the weather is pretty cold rite now. and todae's my bro's bdae!!!!

Happi Bdae Brother!!! (he wouldnt get to read this anyway)

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i dun like it when pple misunderstand or assume stuff on their own part. i dun tink anybody likes that. bcos ive never said anyting... n ur putting words into my mouth. it dosen matter now anyway.. it did in the past.

im free!!! hhaha. im free of AhLing MoGui. hhahaha... maybe Mindy MoGui can come find me now.

that dae huat said sometin that struck me. he said our group was like Living in our own world. Nobody is allowed to enter n we are not reaching to anybody either. i think he makes sense.. bud sadly im e onli one who thinks that way. jasmine pauline weekiat... all appeared oblivious. maybe its me... or maybe its them. whatever it is... DUN ask mi not to think too much about it. im not going to...

ydae wasn't exactly a great dae... like how all fridaes are epected to be. we dined with Yaohua at KFC after school and it started okae. bud gradually got pretty disastrous (to us... not to him i noe) as his mouth started to blabber non-stop.

wait. i gotta go sing bdae song fer my brother.

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*Happy

*Birthday

*To

*You

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ok done.

back to Yaohua. yeps so he was blabbering. it realli was THE WHOLE TABLE OF SIX HE WAS THE ONE TOKING NONSTOP AND ALL OTHER 5 EITHER KEPT QUIET OR REACTED ANGRILY AT HIS COMMENTS.

all along ive been sayin or tellin myself we are only magnifying his actions... we're lookin stupid treatin him like that. we shud try accepting him. we shud understand him... bud afta ydae ive concluded it is intolerable... and his attitude towards issues and his comments are... absolutely hopeless-kinda. he said stuff so clearly insulting and sarcastic. im nt tokin bout stuff he said about me (yea the other 4 of u would noe)... im tokin bout remarks made which had entirely no facts to back it up with. Ive always said to start an argument only when u understand the situation and that u actually do know what everything is all about and going on... but no. he insists on doing it his way... to criticise every single thing he can think of and imagine his way through ... with no facts and no proper understanding even coming to his mind. just what the hell is his problem. and he thinks in such a practical way that every single thing and happenings involve money in this world. every reason n motive behind every action is about money. relationships and goodwill has been thrown outta his mind... outta this bloody world. i really dun noe what his FARKING problem is.

i was going to explode all the while n right until he started criticising stef. there's e bloody catalyst. i dun tink i showed it physically lah... bud i was scolding all sorts of vulgarities at him. vulgaritis of evry language evry meaning. hhaha. n i still couldnt calm myself down. i was thinkin of evy single thing i could throw back at him... just like he did... bud in a LOGICAL way... which is unlike him. he said stef face is shit... he sae she not chio. he sae she beri arrogant (yes the "What do u want me to do?" thing...) n stuff about Peter helping stef for money and all sorts of unrelated stuff. and he said... "ohh im sorry. i think somebody here is a fan of Sun Yan Zi, no wonder he's so angry lah...!! but y shud u care... she is not your sister or your auntie. she is not ur friend and she is not related to you what... u get angry oso no use..."

EXCUSE ME. whether anot she is related to me in any way has absolutely no link to whether anot i shud pass comments you have been making or get angry with pple like you making such comments la!!! u do not go around criticising people in that kind of !^@%@%">!^@%@%!*@! manner no matter who she/he is. why dun u go look at the mirror and start saying "ohh... he's so bloody nerdy and ugly and arrogant and fake and spastic and thick-skinned and kanasai!" i bet it is this I                                    I whole lot more convincing than any comment u have made EVER.

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ok ... cool down...

u noe when i said to him understand the situation b4 makin comments and entering an argument... i tot again how i saw him at first... how i was influenced by what the others said and settin the impression already. so while trying to "see" him on a clean slate i still couldnt take it... i think he deserved it.

enough of him. speaking of retribution and deserving... im thinking like have i ever done something to deserve retribution... in anyway during my life??

im left to ponder... bud no matter wad just dont regret doin anything yea.... : )

ps: i noe the ending is kinda anti-climax.... hhhaa yes i noe.