yahar im addicted to staying up late doing shit. just listening to this music and with the rain going on and on outside you know. sometimes it takes a movie or song to get you thinking about yourself, thinking about all thats been going on with ya. it dosent make sense that you are living on something that you dont exactly plan to in your mind. you know how you think something should be done this way and thaty way but in reality you do everything differently. easier said than done eh, i think its all down to yourself. we probably should be defining ourselves at the end of every day and put it beside what we intended it to be. you know both sides of it changes all the time. because we always think and maybe do a lil bit at most, then chuck it aside. so we are back to square one. we probably should have more of these selfish individual sessions. u know think about nothing but yourself and start putting stuff into action. like maybe first try replacing "stuff" with actual things to begin with. looks like its a whole chunk of crap here, it does look like crap. but is it crap, or it turns to crap once i read it again tmr morning. nonetheless, i need a revamp. a hell lot more than my room or whatever else needs.