thanks to ngak... he did everything he could to get put me through all the shit again. but its gone lah ah... people at most reminisce...

you know... im not saying anything. i just feel that maybe things could have turned out better if i hadn't behaved like how i used to.. or is still doing (i dont know). Yea... regrets fill my life. regrets FILL ME. though i seriously think its bullshit to say people should live with no regrets. like how the fuck is that possible. all you can do is to live the REST of your life with no regrets. BUT again... you won't ever know whether something is going to turn out to be a "regret" until its over do you...

so yea... girls are a parrt of life that you cant do without, but there are times when you dont want them. like they are so important its really a fuckin chore to incorporate them into your life. yea of course im talking about only certain girls... not ALL girls. thats abit overboard. and certain girls i don mean it in a bad way, i mean it in a good way like only the certain girls who are important to you... yea aiyah u get what i mean.

but

EHH my regrets arent all affairs of the heart la... i know i have plenty of that to reflect on. no Seriously. All the youth-y enthusiasm, they just became... well angst you might say. nothing came out of that. just pure space.

yea eric's right... i probably should start believing in what i want to do myself. why care about the complications of something you want to do, when u havent done it... life's not very long u know... and its not THAT short you cant get anything decent out of it.