saturday morning. wahahaha ok its 2pm bud i jus woke up so its MORNING to me. i think it just rained... cos the weather is pretty cold rite now. and todae's my bro's bdae!!!!

Happi Bdae Brother!!! (he wouldnt get to read this anyway)

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i dun like it when pple misunderstand or assume stuff on their own part. i dun tink anybody likes that. bcos ive never said anyting... n ur putting words into my mouth. it dosen matter now anyway.. it did in the past.

im free!!! hhaha. im free of AhLing MoGui. hhahaha... maybe Mindy MoGui can come find me now.

that dae huat said sometin that struck me. he said our group was like Living in our own world. Nobody is allowed to enter n we are not reaching to anybody either. i think he makes sense.. bud sadly im e onli one who thinks that way. jasmine pauline weekiat... all appeared oblivious. maybe its me... or maybe its them. whatever it is... DUN ask mi not to think too much about it. im not going to...

ydae wasn't exactly a great dae... like how all fridaes are epected to be. we dined with Yaohua at KFC after school and it started okae. bud gradually got pretty disastrous (to us... not to him i noe) as his mouth started to blabber non-stop.

wait. i gotta go sing bdae song fer my brother.

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*Happy

*Birthday

*To

*You

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ok done.

back to Yaohua. yeps so he was blabbering. it realli was THE WHOLE TABLE OF SIX HE WAS THE ONE TOKING NONSTOP AND ALL OTHER 5 EITHER KEPT QUIET OR REACTED ANGRILY AT HIS COMMENTS.

all along ive been sayin or tellin myself we are only magnifying his actions... we're lookin stupid treatin him like that. we shud try accepting him. we shud understand him... bud afta ydae ive concluded it is intolerable... and his attitude towards issues and his comments are... absolutely hopeless-kinda. he said stuff so clearly insulting and sarcastic. im nt tokin bout stuff he said about me (yea the other 4 of u would noe)... im tokin bout remarks made which had entirely no facts to back it up with. Ive always said to start an argument only when u understand the situation and that u actually do know what everything is all about and going on... but no. he insists on doing it his way... to criticise every single thing he can think of and imagine his way through ... with no facts and no proper understanding even coming to his mind. just what the hell is his problem. and he thinks in such a practical way that every single thing and happenings involve money in this world. every reason n motive behind every action is about money. relationships and goodwill has been thrown outta his mind... outta this bloody world. i really dun noe what his FARKING problem is.

i was going to explode all the while n right until he started criticising stef. there's e bloody catalyst. i dun tink i showed it physically lah... bud i was scolding all sorts of vulgarities at him. vulgaritis of evry language evry meaning. hhaha. n i still couldnt calm myself down. i was thinkin of evy single thing i could throw back at him... just like he did... bud in a LOGICAL way... which is unlike him. he said stef face is shit... he sae she not chio. he sae she beri arrogant (yes the "What do u want me to do?" thing...) n stuff about Peter helping stef for money and all sorts of unrelated stuff. and he said... "ohh im sorry. i think somebody here is a fan of Sun Yan Zi, no wonder he's so angry lah...!! but y shud u care... she is not your sister or your auntie. she is not ur friend and she is not related to you what... u get angry oso no use..."

EXCUSE ME. whether anot she is related to me in any way has absolutely no link to whether anot i shud pass comments you have been making or get angry with pple like you making such comments la!!! u do not go around criticising people in that kind of !^@%@%">!^@%@%!*@! manner no matter who she/he is. why dun u go look at the mirror and start saying "ohh... he's so bloody nerdy and ugly and arrogant and fake and spastic and thick-skinned and kanasai!" i bet it is this I                                    I whole lot more convincing than any comment u have made EVER.

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ok ... cool down...

u noe when i said to him understand the situation b4 makin comments and entering an argument... i tot again how i saw him at first... how i was influenced by what the others said and settin the impression already. so while trying to "see" him on a clean slate i still couldnt take it... i think he deserved it.

enough of him. speaking of retribution and deserving... im thinking like have i ever done something to deserve retribution... in anyway during my life??

im left to ponder... bud no matter wad just dont regret doin anything yea.... : )

ps: i noe the ending is kinda anti-climax.... hhhaa yes i noe.