Hey HEY!!

Happy New Year!!




yikes. i'm just talkin to myself. this is a dilapidated little page on the bombbig web.

im supposed to spend some time doing up this page I KNOWWWW... it just slipped off my mind lah. besides, i didnt even update with entries... you seriously think i will do up the page. must be nuts.

anyway, the new year's come and is slowly goin again. well, people met one another again for the sake of traditions. darn... every year i enter this period with nothing in my mind and come out of it with a million questions. and shit... my biggest fear of them allll (its still lingering up thr in my mind actually) is SERIOUSLY materialising. which i am getting suspicious contributes to my longing for NZ a lot more than i thought. and my life. ive been doin pretty much TONS of thought on that subject matter. and i still only have a tiny idea of how my life should pan out.


I AM GOING TO NEW ZEALAND WHEN I'M 40 YO.

i am goin there with my fortune made.
i am going to marry the love of my life. (the grey)
i am going to do absolutely nothing there.
i will start to enjoy my presence alive.
i will start to appreciate the very wonders all around us.
I will BE in heaven.


we always hear about love,

knowing no boundaries
sacrificial & above all else
keeping us alive


you know i firmly believe in that. call me whatever you want. which is why i dont subscribe to the ideas of forbidden love. there IS forbidden love, which is STILL love; that is forbidden. thats why its called forbidden LOVE. you know in life, there are alot of things that you cannot control because its been there ever since your great great great great ancestors were even born. there are rules that somehow evolved into norms people are expected to abide to. i'm not goin to spell it out. it actually even takes courage to merely mention these days. if it results in no children so be it. if we can spend the rest of our lives together blissfully with well-wishes of those closely loved, heck i would give up years if i need to!

(i know a certain teng has a thousand names to call me by now and a million stuff to shoot haha!)

life is you know... indeed a journey. what kind of journey we decide. i know what i want. and i intend not to let anybody else interfere with it.














p.s. HAHA i got feedback i'm actually suggesting im gay in this entry. you know in my supposed enlightened thinking i should be simply allowing it to happen and yet not get to me.. BUT HOR i just want to like... say abit lah... that IM NOT FREAKIN GAY. NO IM NOT TALKING HOMOSEXUALITY. ahem.